As it is....

2009-05-05T10:57:00.002-04:00

Despite every thing that happens

I hope you never forget about me

I will still be waiting

I'm sorry for all I have done

I wont say that if I'm given a chance,

I will do things the other way round

but instead,

if you would come back into my life

i guess things will be different for us

Although I told you that i will try to forget,

but that's easier to be said than done,

and after all these while,

i felt that why would i want to deny myself again,

why do i have to tell myself to forget about you

when i know that very well that i love you very much

However,

my life still goes on no matter how much i despises it

i would have to live it to the fullest

and make every moment that comes

and be happy always

i hope the same applies to you

I cant hope for anything,

I cant dream of anything,

but I just wish that,

you will not forget about me in such a short time,

not as friends,

but as a companion for life,

if, that's what i could be.

i know i said i will try to forget about you soon, i know i said that, but i rather i did not make that decision that day, cause my heart really does stays with you.

It's funny, how real life can be so different. Why can other chase for love so much and that they are so in love and everything, but when it comes to real life, at least when it comes to me, it seems like they say love is not everything, love from your family members and friends are more important? If im not in love so deeply, how do i get my own "family" member next time? plenty of question arise in my head these few weeks, so many things i have seen and want to blog about, but i just doesnt want to blog.

I'm fine now, I'm ok now... i guess i wont say im excellent until you are back into my life, or when things starts to change.

2009-05-01T13:40:00.002-04:00

i have been waking up to nightmares and always wakes up with cold sweats for the pass 2 weeks.... im afraid, im afraid, i donoe what lies in front of me....

人的內心到底有多孤獨光從外表是看不出來的

Status

2009-04-25T12:52:00.002-04:00

I guess now everything is finally over to you.

you finally made that move.

i respect it.

but for the past weeks, it has been something that i have been checking at least 3 times a day.

i reli do hope it's not an end for us, but what am i to ask anymore?

like i said, wait till i stand up again...

I will never be able to cover or to ask for forgiveness for the pressure and things i have put you through, but i always hope, love can bring us further then where we are.

i still, hope.

i still, love.

i still, trying.

i still....

Same old brand new you

2009-04-24T12:13:00.004-04:00

If this thought come across my mind "I think i need a new blog layout"

It's highly possible that i could get down to it start looking for blogskin and change it without a night.

and

If i think that i need a new hairstyle, i could just visit saloon tml and get a hair do.

but when u wan to unroot something that has always been there, it's not an overnight thing.

固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错

If people out there still doesnt know me that why, you probably does know that i love to keep old stuffs as remembrance to my past.

if you do step into my house and been given a close tour to my house, u will find that i have my primary text books from Brunei, Primary 4 5 6 Science Text Books, piles and piles of papers that i have collected since form 1?

To many many, this might be rubbish or something that not worth keeping, but to me, it sort of tells me how far i have come, things i have gone thru, memories that follows with it. Now it makes it clear why i have always love sciences. Not that my businesses not good or that my managment not good, fyi i do scored in my Managment first year and during pre U days but i guess i just have been fancied science even since young, this has been my passion. But where is the passion now?

Besides all these, i skip keep many things, believe it or not, if you have once send me a card in standard 6 or form 1, there are chances that im still having it.

If you given me a bookmark as high school graduation gift, it's still with me (HX!) or just a plain gift (Farah - Pre departure gift, Kimberly- a bookmark with a cheering up pharse, Carmen- 21st bday present)

If you went to holiday and brought me home a key chain, chances are it's now hanging under my bed. (CY- from many parts of the world, CW- Korea, Sue May- UK, PC- Australia, Leng- Lego, yUn- China)

If you have given me a present, chances are the wrapper is still here! Dont be surprised (Oh i dun think i can name specifically which one belongs to who).

If you are looking for the name list from form 3, it's still in my file.

If you are looking for SPM paper for 2003, i have the whole set with me here.

Gift from ex-gf can still be found in my house, that might not be fair to any girl that im dating but yes, that's my past and i do hope whoever it is to be able to accept it.

If you are looking for those pocket photo we took from those machince back in secondary, it's stil safely kept in my cupboard. (Imm wurn... Carmen, CL, PChew)

Well and of coz, if u have given me a present for it be birthday or not, of coz u expect me to keep it rite and well why not of all things?

Now that is all said and done
I cant believe you are the one
to build me up and tear me down

So what does it sum up about me?

Im a dead loser?

Im a person who goes for sentimental value?

Im a junker?

Im a person who cant let go of the past?

Loser, if you think i am, so are you.

Sentimental value, it does means alot to me, how can a person live without feelings

Junk collector, it could be junk to you, but it does means something to me.

Cant let go of the past? I dun think so, it's just that, im build from the past, what i am today has to be all this things that have shaped and moulded the me today.

Im all out of love,
Im so lost without you,
I know you were right,
believing for so long
What are you thinking now
What are you thinking now?

Besides that, i love "medals" or "souvenirs" or "trophy" in things i have achieved. I'm like Voldermort if you do read Harry Potter and the half blood prince, you will know what im talking about.

I know that material things are not important. Is what you gain that counts. but maybe im someone that has to see with my eyes.

I have certificates, to remind me of my achievment and what i could do and the times i have done it.

I have sports medal that tell me that even though im not very good but i was still good enough to have one.

I have all sorts of "backstage passes"- Meetings with YAB Deputy Prime Minister, Participation in forum, seminar, classes etc

I have plenty of button pin, name tags, badges... that's wat i have earned.

Cause you're everywhere to me
when I close my eyes, its you I see
everything that I know makes me believe Im not alone

So, what is so bad about it? When u play games, when u achieve something, it gives u badges, rewards and etc, rite? it makes you happy because you will smile on the hard work you have put in to get that and it makes u feels like u have achieved something.

i guess that's wat all these stuffs have does the same.

But now, all these means very little to me, somehow. It tells me what i can do, it tells me what i have achieved, it tells me how hard the journey had been, it tells me that i have been thru hard times as well. But without my own faith, own believe, own confident, all these seems nothing.

So, mayb i should conclude that, all these time, these medal, trophy and stuffs, is just a reinforcement on to my already-confident self.

I dont deny that when im a bit down, i go thru them and i found back the "ummph" but mayb because i had yet to lose myself, i have yet to lose confidence in myself, unlike the time now.

Therefore, i would have to seek you, my confident.

"Shall we talk? " I hope that you have been well and strong as well. I miss you, lots.

i do wonder, if i will come across your mind when you are all alone?

2009-04-22T23:52:00.003-04:00

"The first step in the process, i shall be able to like myself, find the reason Im living in this world. "

In order to stand up, i realized that it's about starting to like myself and to find the purpose in life or at least to let me know that there's a reason for me to live in this world.

My reason before this was easy, to get pass everyday with a happy feeling and also to someday worked something out in the corporate world. But now, i wonder what is the reason.

Instead of looking for a paid job, i will now go and do some so called soul searching. I will have to determine what is the factor that could bring me satisfaction, which in a way hard to tell because i have always been trying lots of water. I love doing many things, and many things in life brings me satisfaction. but now, when i have to determine something that will bring me much satisfaction, i cant determined. Before this, some small thing could also make my day, for example, a person approached me for advise, and i offer advice and the person is happy.

I like to talk. That's pretty obvious. I enjoy using my words to touch people's heart. But is there a thing like this to do in the world? or at least without any qualification? I wonder.

many has asked me to let go, i though about it, but i did not want to, not becuase i couldnt let go, and not because im stubborn, but its because i love you.

Yesterday something hit me bad. When gor told me that looking at my condition, i will only be able to stand up in 1-2 years. That got me bad. I tot it will only take me 1-2 months, never have i known that it takes such long time. nevertheless, i still will stand up and stand tall hopefully in a shorter period.

It took me long enough to realised how much i love you, the times that i had wasted and never appreciate you, that i know, i will never be able to replenish it for you.

I will, stand up, nothing to do with anyone or anything, but for myself so that i could see the happy and cheerful JasonC that i have always been. It takes time, and my behaviour of loving to get things done fast isnt helping. But i will still have to try, for a better future.

2009-04-20T03:18:00.001-04:00

'Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!! '

'Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. '

I saw the 2 sentences from Kimhan's Blog when i was blog hopping today.

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

如果你看得見，我想告訴你，我还沒放棄，只像讓你有點空間

Time

2009-04-19T14:08:00.002-04:00

People always says,

Time, it can cure many thing
Time, will heal a wound

but besides all these positive things, do you know time kills as well?
Time also ruin what was builded with time.

Time. What a special thing.

4 scenarios,

Right time and Right action = Right Move, Perfect.
Wrong time, Wrong action = Wrong Move.
Wrong time, Right action = Wrong Move
Right time, Wrong action = Wrong Move

There's only 1/4 chances that an action can paired with a time and end up being perfect.

Maybe that's why things arent just so perfect all the time, we always take the wrong move.

I have done nasty things, at the wrong time. Of coz when you ask me i would say i wished that i have not done any of it, but truth is, what is done is done, when it's a wrong move, no matter wat you tried to do to change it, it will never be right again.

So, why try to make it right again? But no, we want to make it right so that we move, we move forward, we move on, we advance, we grow.... but in the terms of growing, what u have learnt will become a lesson, you will turn back one day and think: oh yeah that was the mistake and i never do it again. But the questions is, will what you lost be worth it? Or is what u have currently better than the past? WE could only hope that it is. But wat if it's not? We can only take the history back and appreciate it as an art, an art that will only stays as good as a memory.

"Present, is what you should focus on" a very best fren of mine said to me the other day. Why look into the future when u know nothing about it and becoz of the future u ruin ur present. It makes sense but what is there to live if you stop having Hope, stop having dreams? Well, Hope and Dreams always fails us so we should only live in the present and live the present to the fullest.

To conclude this post, there's a line i learnt from this very best fren of mine that reli hit many things thru my mind tonite.
"Fill up ur own cup with love before u can do so for the others" If ur cup is not filled, why would u wan to fill other's cup full first. "Love yourself before you love others" .

It was such a beautiful line.

I still love you, but things got tricky. I will stand up before i make anymore moves. i hope time heals and not kill.

2009-04-06T05:47:00.001-04:00

才知道　你脸上的微笑　
不是幸福代表　
是种不自在的礼貌

才知道　感情已经动摇　
我一直被误导　
是你还不愿意揭晓

太多小烦恼　怪我们不懂得抛　
太多的问号　答案也都不必找
只换来疲劳　忘了要一起变老

为何要无话可说　才懂沉默比争吵难熬
为何会在恨消失后爱还是挽回不了
为何要在疼爱的时候　才对我说离开我　
都是为我好

逃兵

2009-03-10T01:54:00.003-04:00

這條路到底會引導我到甚麼地步，這是个未知數
步伐一天比一天的沈重，一天比一天的難走
我到底还能承多久，也是个未知數
請准許我當个逃兵，離開這殘酷的世界

逃兵是要被軍法裁制的，那就用軍法來曾制我吧！

輿世隔離

2009-03-02T03:21:00.002-05:00

常常都可以聽說某某人在深山隱居了20年後，回到現實生活中。。。

難到隱姓埋名，於世隔離真的有那麼容易嗎？

像我在城市里長大的小孩，擁有著一班要好的朋友和家人，再加上有个自己滿舒服的空間，我真的就可以這樣的於世隔離嗎？

時常都可以看到人家在一生中有個轉磊點，往往人生當中會有某一件事是可以讓一個人的看法或一生都改變但是這好像從沒發生過在我身上

難道我還要等到40／50／60／70 歲才會有轉磊點？

這只是我在巴士上突然想到的一些 random stuff...

hahah

想家

2009-02-24T19:23:00.002-05:00

好想好想回家去但是現在還不是時候

在想這辦法如何在假期時回去

希望一切順利吧

加油！努力！

First Saturday in Adeliade

2009-02-20T19:37:00.003-05:00

I have been here since tuesday and it should be 4-5 days since i reached australia.

Well, honestly, this few days has not been the easiest day of my life as expected. I have experienced it before, back in canada few years back.

Something i should be glad this time is that my urge or going home are not that strong. i wont deny that i felt so bad that i wish to be home right away but well... at least i could still control on that, not like when i was in canada.

I have been here for so many days, other than the childhood fren that came with me, i have not actually met a fren yet... im suppose to have a few frens here but it's either i dun have thier contact or i have and dun dare to find them... im in desperate need to see familiar faces to meet familiar face before i head out to search for new frens and to meet people that are not malaysian or someone i familiar with...

i had became so desperate that at one point i just add a random fren's 2nd degree fren on facebook just becoz she is here and she's studing in flinders.

i reli need to see familiar faces.... sobs

2009-02-17T09:52:00.002-05:00

16 Feb 2009

Malaysia, i bid you goodbye
My family and my girlfriend yUn, i bid u all good by as well
My dearest frens whom i cherish a lot, i bid you all goodbye as well

as of today, im leaving all these behind and setting foot into the land of kangaroos and crazy hot sun, Australia.

Well, it's not an easy journey from KL to Adelaide, not the physical journey but the mental and emotional journey... but with the support from baby, family and friends, it makes it easier... but stilll not easy...

Wai Chien if u reading this you are not alone in Monash... i experience the almost same thing as u... just that i din put my dirty shirts with detergent into the dryer lah... hahaha

17 Feb 2008

Homesick.

One word says it all... no point explainig further... the feelings are sad depressing...

till then...

Choices

2009-01-11T14:57:00.002-05:00

I have come to realize that there are many choices that we are left to made.

Some, you would have think you made a right choice
Some, you would have think you made a bad choice

But in the end of the day, what determines a bad choice and what determines a right choice? I guess in my humble opinion, it would be a right choice are those outcome that is favourable to you; a bad choice simply just doesnt seems to go the way you want. That is just wat i think.

Months after....

2008-12-11T23:18:00.002-05:00

In the past 6 months... many things has happened... well some might think why i have not been blogging... actually i have occasionally been blogging... just that either i din finish the post or i finish writing it and did not post it up... hehe

so for the past months...

I've successfully completed my 3 years bachelor degree in Medical Bioscience without delay
I've been offer a job in Sunway University College as Advisor- Student Development & Sports
I've gone through my graduation ceremony
I've attended Trainings
I've done 10KM in Singapore Marathon 2008 with a better result compared to 2007
I went to Genting for holiday (ya.. nothing so special)
I went Singapore for holiday with my baby
I have been in charge of some big scale events and some smaller ones
I have been offer to study in Flinders University to continue in Masters of Nutrition and Dietetic
I have been observing the rates of Aussie dollar and it has been favouring me
I have accepted the offer to study in Flinders
I have been in quite some fight with my baby and we survive it
I have gone through feeling alone when my baby left for a 26 days trip to UK
I have been calling ppl with the prefix of Mr. and now transit to ppl calling Mr. Jason
I have led a great bunch of International Students
I have led a great bunch of Junior Leaders
I have a monthly dinner with my primary schoolmates which is awesome!!

and many other things....

2008-05-18T13:34:00.002-04:00

I now type 74wpm !!! woohoo

74 words

Speedtest

Assistant Returning Officer

2008-05-15T23:22:00.004-04:00

So, when was i last blogged? Not that long ago, at least when compared to the previous hiatus, this is considered good enough...

So i was recently appointed as the Assistant Returning Officer in the Annual MUISS Election, well one thing is this is one of those very little job that MUSA will pay u to work, other time, u work for free... especially when you run for election and elected as officer bearers, there is no chance at all that u will get paid for wat u did... So no complains there... other then being very bz on top of my already bz schedule.

So i was officially appointed on 1 May 2008. Work started immediately coz there no time for us to slack... The election was already passed all the timeline according to their constitution... WAY PASS it... so we rush it and get it done as soon as we could.... and i think we made it thru... as i am blogging here, im actually working in the Polling Station with a laptop i loan from my uncle (An iBook G4... AWESOME Condition - Lousy Touchpad... but no complain... it gives me the same working environment for me as at home)so wat i was trying to say that we are going along fine... so far... because it hasnt end yet... voting counting is later at 2pm...

Election Election Election...

There's always politic and its always dark and dirty...

This brought me back to my memories when i was ran for MUSA in year 2006. Luckily that time i have my fren's support namely Tim, Sooks, Jane and the people from SPEAK 2006 (Trudy, Darren, Kate, Dahlia, Yvonne, Zhen Hui, Taha, Zhen Yao and many more... ) if not i wouldnt have survived even the election because it was so "dark and dirty" People close to me would have known wat happen to me (SOYA BEAN)... and yeah... that time was reli dark and dirty...

however, i think its some sort of a trend that in either MUISS or MUSA election, there's tend to be some sort of cheating or imbalance between parties... because there's always issue coming up.... people shooting one another... (not literally shooting but politically shotting) parties complaint each other... this and that... they fight thru the technical mistake they did and they did not focus on getting more votes to win... but i wont say that its not a strategy but.. rather unethical.

I was fortunate enough to be assigned to manage the complains (well... im well known to have memorized the constitution and regulation by heart)... been in few hearings... but sad things is i found that all these are so... technical fault... i wonder if i was the one that did not pay attention or was it reli not happening that the Malaysia General Election or any other country, we dont see these sort of complain and election tribunal coming in to rule something out... mayb it was just me overlooked this part of the election or it's just not published.

You dont see in Malaysia General Election that any candidate could be restricted from campaigning but that happens in MUSA and MUISS election.

Anyhow, i do wish everything goes well i could go back to my own work to keep eveything in schedule... i have one more presentation on next wed, one report on next thurs and a major assignment on friday... that cost me 25% i think...

till then,
byE

A Random Overheard Conversation

2008-04-29T01:07:00.000-04:00

Well, its a fact that the knowledge of ENVIRONMENT PROTECTION in Malaysia is growing but it is still not high enough...

but wat i overheard this morning, really hit me bad that ppl are still not aware of the consequences of their action and it does seems like they are taking any initiative to make the world a better place.

Scenario: From Monash Car Park Walking in to Monash University Sunway Campus.

Place : At the GATE of Monash University Sunway Campus

Person Involved : Monash University Sunway Campus Security, 3 Random Student.

What i heard start from...

Security: " Yeah, why they build it there, i suggested that they build it by the longkang (Monsoon Drain) so that after you smoke, you can just throw the cigarettes butt into the parit (Monsoon Drain)"

and it ends there... (it didnt took me long to walk pass them , alrite.... and have u forgotten, it was just OVERHEARD, i did not purposely spy and listen to their convo)

Abit of background info..

The monash carpark is divided by a Monsoon Drain and is again connected by a bridge so we could walk over.

It does not look good for student to smoke right outside the gate so the Uni proposed to have a smoking area (Universities in Malaysia are gazetted non-smoking area).

So, i sorry to say but why are the security personnel having such mentality?

I have never look down on ppl according to their job, i tot security guards would at least have some sort of conscious knowing that at least wat we as a person should do to protect the world... but apperantly not...

It's reli sad that when u look at other countries drain, most of it are actually clean even the water flowing LOOKED consumable. Im not just saying becoz that im a pro-other country ppl but i actually experienced it. when i was in taiwan and hong kong, drains are better kept and pollution, at least to my eyes are less...

if u walk around in KL and notice all the drains, it would be HARD that u do not spotted any foreign object.. experience it..

Karangan Bergambar , 看圖說故事, Directed Writting

2008-04-20T09:06:00.006-04:00

Alrite.... a short post for now... been QUITE bz for some time... and has been procrastinating also... i mean on blogging... coz academically im not that procrastinate yet... hahaha

now.. simple and short... there's picture and i wrote someo SHORT note for those pictures... to compensate those days that i din blog but those pictures were meant for this blog...

The 2 pictures above was taken on 9/3/08, a day after Malaysia 12th General Election, where our ruling party had been sent a very big "gift"... so what will come to ur mind when u first see this? To me... it seems like there's no tml and ppl are stocking up to avoid going out...

"Fear of the declearation of EMERGENCY State? "

Nah~ Malaysia is still as peaceful as always... in some sense... hahaha

Now, this was taken from my new car road tax.

So now the government is earning money from both side? One from the Rakyat(Citizen) and the business sector?

It seems to me that government should not have favors any company that are generally not GOvernment link companies (GLCs) coz ethically i think it is not fair for those who did not able to "advertise" in such great place... and MOST PROBABLY (im not saying it is, so dont sue me) that the company got the advertising space by pulling strings....

And after all, these kind of official government documents should always be free from any advertisement or anything that are not related... Imagine if ur passport suddenly got Masairline or airasia logo... wat would it be like?

If so happen ur driving licences strat to have these kind of insurance company advetisment wat will happen.

If your birth certificate starts to have StemCells company advertisement wat will happen ?

if you MyKad (National Identity Card) starts to have " Feel like you are being threaten? Dont worry, our lawyers and solicitors are always ready, please call, 03-9543481X" to get legal protection"

That will be hilarious... and i wonder wat i will reflect on us when we are in other country... Other countries authority might ask... "Hey mike, are you trying to fool me by giving me your biz card??hahahahha"

Those are just example... u can come up more with that? hahaha

and now... chinese customs... has grown to be more "down to earth, close to home" ... just for example there's a day in our chinese custom is that we go and pray homage to our ancestor at the graveyard and usually, we bring lots of stuff to "give" them that includes food, beverage etc etc.... and also not to be forgotten, those fake money and all sorts of things... it has evolved since last time and now, credit card, passport, air tickets and etc are all available ... the denomination for those fake money has grew larger and larger ... and even some takes the greenbacks as template... hahahah...

above is a 500000000 hell notes dollar... but DO YOU NOTICE THAT... it was written in english as One Thousand Dollar ?? so tell me, is my maths sucks or wat? 500000000= 1000 ??

hahaha i found that in Pasar Malam... and cant resist to take a photo of it...

First, i need your understanding...i yet to know how to roate pictures in iMac... sorry...

i need to translate anyhow...

The advert above stated... Students will get a discount of 15% ANYTIME at Kim GaXy Restourant in Sunway Pyramid... (任何時間，任何時候）tell me if i din get the chinese correct... as in those chinese words are not referring to ANYTIME

bcoz... when question about the discount on one fine weekend nite (being another cheap bastard uni student), the waitress told me that, "Oh, im sorry, we dont have it at weekends" and i was pissed, so i asked why... she replied... "Oh... it says anytime "WHEN THE ADVERT IS UP ON UR TABLE"...

freaking hell... which part of the advert actually says that... i promise... if i graduate and dont find a job in 1 month time, i will file a court order to them man... hahaha

Well, this has nothing much to say.. just a new ambulance that the Civil Defence had equiped them with... its been long since i have waited for new ambulance because frankly speaking... the old wans SUCKS... hahaha... cant disclose much.. ask me for more info

Lastly, this is a picture of ridzki handling the syringe with egg albumin contained inside ready to be injected into a mouse... like this photo, dont exactly know why... but it reli looks good...

ok, that's the end of today's blog... i know i din blog for long... so compensation ok ? hahaha

till then,

roger out

of Holidays

2008-01-19T02:28:00.000-05:00

There goes the end of the year, and here comes a brand new year!!!!

Christmas and New year are always refered to as holiday season for no reason.... i guess regardless of which part of the wrold you lives, end of the year are always holiday season. That leads me to conclude that "people trave during the end of the year " and that "tourism sector earns the most at the end of the year" i could be wrong, as i judge by my experince which is so little but yet sufficient.... contracdicting... yes... yes...

Most of the time, holidays are spend with family members... even if u travel, you travel with parents more often... (or is this just another "Asian/Chinese tradition")... but as for me... hmmm... hardly?

So... if you are not well infromed, i come from a very small family... a family that consist of a father , a mother, and an only child.. which so happen to be me (duh~~~)

and thus, i donoe if that's the reason... i dun travel with my family too often... reason being...

1. My ideal of holiday is, travel in groups of about 5-8 but less than 10... so with a family of 3 members... that cant be achieved.

2. Mind you, im from a typical-traditional chinese family, bonds between parents and child are not that strong, it just sometimes feel awakrd.

3. Activities that i could do during travelling are limited... my parents are not young, niether are they aged until they can hardly walk, but just like roller coaseter and stuff like this... they wont be going up on a ride with me anymore... not like those small kid roller coaster they used to bring me to when im young... they could take a ride with me in those but not those that i could still find excictment in....

4. odd numbered family member... most of the time when u travel, it's best it's in pair... so things can be done in pair. like most of the activity required... even not pairs... it's usually even number and not odd number

well if 4 reasons above are not sufficient... i could provide more... butjust not at this moment.

That's why i have hardly travel with my parents since i was in secondary school... frankly speaking, i couldnt even recall the last time we actually travel as a family.. i think it was kuching when i was like 7 / 8 ??? well of coz driving to ipoh, penang johore, singapore... i din count that as travel... i donoe why... mayb they are just too near and most of the time we go there with something official biz to do and along side with travel... (travelling is side dish) also these does not requires passport... yes yes singapore need... but i have stayed in singapore for about 3 years when im young... so singapore to me are just like... erm... going home (feels like) and it doesnt gives me the feeling of travelling...

my dad will be back for CNY and mum has asked to plan a holiday... stil figuring where to go .... i have langkawi in mind... but the tot of wat to do there... just... keep me wanting nothing more...

shall continue to think then....

*bored* Working*

of Working and Masters

2008-01-03T21:26:00.000-05:00

As pointed out by huixin :" an update, finally"

Guess that this could be a rountine again since i have a computer lab class every friday which i really doesn't have much to do... Question is, why cant i just update at home? (That was a question with no answer) and afterall it all depends on whether if i have any topic to expressed on.

Are there no others option other than working and continuing your studies after you have finally graduated from a university recieving a Bachelor degreee? I guess there are really not much option... if u say you could start travelling, but how long more before u actually used up your money (or your parent's money).. if you say venture into business, doesnt it consider as working again? Thus, conclusion of this will be, wokring should be the most probabe exit of graduation. Yet, it is often reported that graduates now are not able to get a job after graduation, why is that so ?

My focus here today are not on the reasons of gradutes not getting job or wat even im quite worried that i might just be the rest having the same attitude problem but that's beside the topic before i actually make up my mind if i were to continue my studies or to start working.

Despite the common exit is to get into the job market and start contributing to the society (or so-called) and earning money at the same time, yet part of me will like to continue studies after 18 years of not-so-good nor not-so-bad studies.

Studying a degree in Medical BioScience could be rewarding and yet depressing... rewarding in terms of gaining in terms of knowledge and it's afterall what i like, but wat is depressing is that the job scopes are rather tiny, on top of that, the career advancement that im much looking forward to are just way too tiny...

*Paused during class, Resume a day after at home*

well i was saying... the tiny career advancement... it's reli hard for me to accept the fact that i might be a laboratory technician in a lab for the next 10 - 15 years... with mayb a 100dollar increment a year and nothing else, such as any breakthru or climbing the ladder of career... that's all i guess...

but on the other hand, if i reli choose the path of academician... how many of u can actually imagine me as Dr. Chan in like 10 years time... i have to admit that im not a very good person in academic... so... hmmm that's an option to really think about also...

guess i'll just end it here and get back to my lunch...

The Lazy Mr. JasonC

2007-12-27T21:35:00.000-05:00

Muahahahahahhaha
Muahahhahaahhaha
Muahahahhahahaha

ok... yes... im lazy and crazy... I have not update for like AGES and Im officially off the market !!!! hahaha

It's been real long when i last blog... im even off the market like 3 months ago... so... imagine how long it had been...

I couldnt deny the fact that the amount of workload from my studies and MUSA are really killing me and taking most of my time... and this has also taken away my DESIRE to blog...

Briefly, i have survived everything in my studies and MUSA... i almost (notice ALMOST) failed one of my subject... but thank god... i passed with a 50...

holiday- went to langkawi...

and i guess that's all the major update for my dear readers... wait till i have any topic to write on... i shall now go back to TRYING to pay attention to my class... hahahah

Monash Ball 2007

2007-09-23T04:27:00.000-04:00

Hmm... kinda lazy to write anything yet... so mean time... let pictures savor ur thirst first lah...

My Preferred Choice of Ms. Monash

2007-09-09T22:29:00.000-04:00

Melody Song's Poster is up... It is totally design by different person, mine by snowy hers by Jolene Lai.... but with the same theme...

so guys and girls... Vote for US!!! Melody and Jason for Ms. and Mr. Monash..!!!!

Vote for MELODY SONG and JASON CHAN

2007-09-09T08:53:00.000-04:00

Dear All....

Please vote for MELODY SONG as Ms. Monash and JASON CHAN as Mr. Monash...

We are the perfect pair of Mr. and Ms. Monash... We both have a twisted ankle... pity us... vote for US... thank you...

Sent from Venus

2007-09-06T11:30:00.001-04:00

Species of Venus are here in Earth to be pampered by the species from Mars? Is that compulsory...

Now...

1 of the point which i have been thinking has once again proven correct... I wonder if the operation should continue to carry on... "major factor this is" quoted Master Yoda... hahahah

seriously need to think it over again...

*i dont think anyone will get wat i am bloggin here... but... this is sorta a reminder to meself... hahah*

Merdeka Eve

2007-09-01T04:53:00.000-04:00

Oh yeah... Time for some updates...

But first...

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia ke 50. ( im aware that it has passed but i did not wish her here yesterday so i wish her today loh) [why does ppl always refer to their country as her, is it because it's nature and MOTHER NATURE??]

Ok.. back to merdeka celebration, a.k.a. countdown... well.. there isnt any actually but there's for sure a memorable scene...

so on the eve of merdeka ( opps... merdeka means independent)... My division decided to go on a road trip, to putrajaya to see fireworks.... but then... we met with an accident...

I am so sorry for Desmond, who actually asked me to drive and i refused.... and also for his ELEANOR ( MyVi)... they are reli bad... but for further details please refer to Desmond's Blog...

none of us sustained any major injuries... those who got it on the spot will be me and cze wien... minor injury... i twisted my ankle... and cze wien, her thumb... and now desmond and william felt the after shock which is not major also... thank god we are all alrite...

i donoe wat happen but all of us were wearing seat beat at that time... including those at the back...

now... here's my leg... today... im fine do not worry, but the photo might suggest otherwise... Looks can be deceiving...

Superficial View , left Leg

distal view, Left Leg

Virginity?

2007-08-28T10:22:00.000-04:00

Well i know the title is Virgin... but let me just start off with something... some rage i want to let out...

Darn you... who are you... i know u supreme and everything but who are u to come into my room and put a big cross on to my picture on the wall? who you think you are... freaking hell... u go smoke 24-7 in your room lah... dont come into my room if your intention is just to humiliate me... have your life... enjoy ur so called life... You know who you are...

Aight... well then... the above mention does has something to do with this post... is the You and another fren who actually "merangsang" me to actually write about this... ( i have been bored of writting only about my life... writting about my life dont make me think critically... )

So the research question (apani too much of PSY... hahah) will be "Whats wrong with being a virgin?"

Well... im often being teased by friends that im single and virgin... but im not too sure if they reli meant it or they just jokingly playing with me lah... but , not to say im angry ( i am not) but it just got me thinking.... is it reli bad to be a virgin to the extend that virgin are not suppose to survive?

i shall just explain on my view, basically... i do not think that being a virgin is bad, but at the same time, i am not suggesting that all should remain thier virginity until they get married... what i am trying to say is that being a virgin or not is not big deal, as long as the time, place and everything else is suitable, u can choose to give it... no point rushing to give up your virginity... just so that u can gain social status? that's just bullshit...

if you think by being a non-virgin, you can move a level up in your social status, i am sorry... at least i will not view u high... again, i wont look u down also... it's a natural thing, ppl have sex... enuff said.

Im sorry if i offended those who are non-virgin out there... but im just stating wat i fell ok? I reli have nothing agasint non-virgin by giving up thier virginity willingly and when they are ready, but i reli do not agree with rushing into giving it up...

i guess that's it then...its now up to you to judge and counter me if u think im wrong.

please do suggest some topic to me so i can THINK with my small little brain which i wonder sometimes if i do have them.. hahaha

2007-08-12T13:39:00.000-04:00

Quote:

"disclaimer: inactivity of this blog by no means implies an inactivity of my life. it may very well be that there is too much happening to simply put it down into words. it may also be that my mind is not a friendly neighborhood to be in right now. or it can be that i do not feel like blogging much. but it may very well be that i'm a lazy bum and not wanting to blog.."(Cheang, 2007)

Cheang, J.H.T. (2007) tim6023's Xanga Site, (assessed on 13th August 2007)

The above basically explains my situation too.... therefore... my lazy bum has just decided to copy and paste and quote it... hahaha

ps. yes this is a crap post

p.p.s. yes... this is indeed a crappy post... by both tim and jason... wth...

Present

2007-07-15T00:01:00.000-04:00

OK.... so it has been like what, half a month im away ? I guess there must be someone that's llike cursing me or something that i did not update my blog for such long time, the top of the list i can think of might just be darren Ng picky lah ... hahaha just a wild guess... u can confess that u dont think so...

Aight, the last post was talking about my last paper...

well... much has pass, much has pass i would dare say.

Well last paper cant hang on that long rite... so i was actually done with exam... in fact the result has also been released... (that shows how long i have not been updating my blog...)

my papers went on well... i pass everything, thank god! in fact im pretty happy that i finally get a D(Distinction not Donkey) for my core paper... Yes... after sometime.. 2 years of studies, and first D? hah... u muz be laughing at me ... go ahead... i must agree with anyone that laugh at me that im an average student and has never been a outstanding student, and never had i been put down and give up studying regardless of the average results. I would then daresay that im more of a well rounded student than just being academically excellent. (i know somewould say that there are many student that excels in all... well... what is the point of comparing, what's more important is what's in me....

Apart from that, i did some traveling (does it consider as traveling? , to me yes...)
traveled to Malacca on a fine saturday after my exam and moving out of campus with my friend to celebrate Imm's 21st birthday. When i say fine means there's sunlight almost the whole day... and it doesnt mean that we were not "cooked" by the sun...

well although photo can say everything.. but .. lets just wait, alrite, wait till i got hold of those photos...

follow closely, i went to singapore the next day, Singapore is no stranger to me as i have frequently visited it over the pass few years and also not to forget that i have actually lived in singapore for almost 2 years with a PR-ship which now has been null. (1. because i have not attended their national service and 2. i love my country!!!!)

Did some little shopping in singapore, bought a sling bag, which later i saw it in 1Utama just slightly cheaper..., went to sentosa, not to enjoy the sun and beach (although i would love to... i love beach alot... just a reminder, and also snows... sounds like both extreme, extremely cold and extremely hot... hmmm.... ) but to enjoy the pink dolphin and underwater aquarium thingy... well was with frenz that likes this... so nothing to complain...

again, pictures are still pending... just wait lah....

Came back on the following tuesday, kinda rush but no choice, because there's a meeting to attend on the 4th July, buddy training on the 6th of July and many other things to attend to as a MUSA council member.

Regardless of that, i still get to have fun with my secondary school classmate to have a small but rather meaningful gathering. we met up in mache (if that's how u spell it.. i doneo how to spell) to have dinner and later, to my house to "Drink!" Again, we have GOOD result, one bottle of Jack Daniel, half a bottle of Vodka and a quarter of Barcardi in i donoe how long, 2 passed out... one severely, vomitted and cried all nite long ( why he cry, total confidential, we keep it among ourclass... at least for me... ) Although im abit high, as host, i will still have to take care of them, im glad that i have my frens with me to clean up the MESS... i have never blame anyone which created the mess... so dont worry.

To my surprise, my mum who woke up the other day, had not scolded me or nagged me... very Surprise indeed. Everyone was worried if i would get sounded or such, but none... well i think this is indeed a very good present for my birthday if ever im asking for one... This is wat i call trust and freedom. I have been thinking of what to ask for for birthday since my mum has asked... but could never come out with anything good.. because to me... trust and freedom is wat i seek... i guess, i soon getting it after all these years....

the next day i visited my secondary school to join the Librarian board election... met a few juniors and feel good of meeting them back ..

photo evidence,

To my horror, i have actually (TOTALLY) forgotten my Pet sister's birthday that was on 3rd of July... and worst still i forgotten this is her 18th Birthday... well of coz she's angry, but i think she gave up on me long time ago because i always couldnt tell if her birthday is on 1st or 3rd of July... im deeply sorry for that Hui Yee...

Happy Belated 18th Birthday, my dear....

well then this whole week have been busy with newbies orientation, this is the first time the orientation is held in the new campus and therefore, more effort are expected. Even the buddies and myself are not THAT familiar with the surroundings but we still managed to orientate the new students... Welcome to all of you to Monash University ( more like hell to me... hahahaha)

I was the chief buddy for science students that the campus tour would fall on wednesday 11th of July but it clashes with the first day of harry potter show on the first day... thus... i made some SPECIAL arrangement and i was made the chief buddy for business students and was on duty on monday and tuesday so i can have my wednesday off to watch harry potter.

Well without surprise, Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix was as disappointing as the rest of the movies. In fact, Globet of Fire was also better than this... what im reli dislike is that they changed alot of the story... and made it not as true as the novel. On top of everything, they accused Cho Chang to be the one who let out the secret in fact it would have been a friend that Cho brings into DA that let out... i hate it... (FYI... i will protect the name of Cho Chang a.k.a Katie Leung becuase she's so hhooooot... but i think she put on a little weight...nevertheless... she's still HoooOOOotttt... )

i think that's all for now, get to go for my weekly training in klang...

till then,
byE

One more to go...

2007-06-23T15:39:00.000-04:00

alrite... so.. after much struggling... im down to the last paper.. (finally..wondering?) well yeah... MedBio in Monash is abit outcast... we start early for exam and it usually last till almost the end... or in fact... i have tired the LAST one... hahah...

Last Paper will be Micro Paper 2... the paper sounds easy... SOUNDS... im not sure if it's reli easy... rumours have already sorta confirmed it's easy... i think maybe that's why after Cellular Metabolism paper (dun mention it... it sucks) we sorta pronounce ourselves to finish exam... and start to replenish the sleep we lost... *well at least for me... i have been catching back sleep and not reli studying... crap!*

anyway... was cleaning abit of my room today and i found this few little "alphabets" and these

has brought back some tiny memories.... wat does all the tinny little bits tells you? (oh yeah... its missing a "R" i think..hahah) it might just be a few random alphabets but to me... they are something of my pass that i would say it's a good and sweet memory i will carry it to the end of my life...

On the other hand... Sookie... this is a msg for you... "I Parked My Car Beside Your so-called-used-to-be-urs Car" and this will the prove...

Pictures above is taken using my new Z710i.. which i sorta has already fall in love with the quality of picture it can come up with..

Happy 21st Birthday, Soo Imm~~!!!

Hope you will begin another part of your life better than those u had in the past 21 years... not to say you had bad years but just hope that road down the life will be much better... always strive for the better rite..

if you ask me to wait... i will...
but that's only if i ask...

it's all gonna start from me... i know what i have to do...
and i will do it... no matter what...

Cellular Metabolism

2007-06-17T08:49:00.000-04:00

What is that?

This ain't any Road Map,
This ain't Kuala Lumpur Public Transport Map,
nor this a Map of Monash New Campus.
And this can not be compared to those of an drawing of Architect
and it is defiantly not a blueprint that Engineers refer to.

But in fact, this is what happen every second in OUR BODY (there is exception always).
and it is also what i will have to digest in the coming 3 days....

This is the cellular pathway of food and enzyme in our body. This is hell of a map... i think it is far worst than the Kuala Lumpur public transport map...!!!

Anyway... should go back to my studies now...

i have fallen deeper with each day passed.
How i wish, im not such a coward.
How i wish, time, space, and distance is not a factor to any of this.

I have like you more each day... but i keep it with myself... how do i convey this msg to you?

"involvment"

2007-06-12T22:05:00.000-04:00

I had "engaged" into several travel plan (notice how i emphasis on the word "plan"?)

Engagement 1:
Place to travel : Australia
Friends involved: Chiau Chun (Melbourne home provider... hahha), Tiong Hoe, Siew Wei, Poh Chan, Sookie...
Status: Pending

Engagement 2:
Place to travel : New Zealand
Friends involved : Siew Wei, Poh Chan, Jocelyn, Poh Chan's Second wife (what's her name d...shit shit shit...)
Status : Pending

Engagement 3:
Place to travel : Korea
Friends involved : LiLi
Status : Pending

Engagement 4:
Place to travel : United States of America
Friends involved: EeLeng, MinSiew, Dayton
Status: Pending

Engagement 5:*new*
Place to travel : England
Friends involved: HuiXin, MinSiew, Liying
Status: Pending *upon request*

Engagement 6:*new*
Place to travel : Korea
Friends involved: XiuNuan
Status: Pending

On the bright side however, i do have a confirmed itinerary

Engagement 7:*new*
Place to travel : Singapore
Friends involved: XiuNuan, Vway Hau
Status: Confirmed
Date: 1st July till 3rd July 2007
Places to visit (so far): Sentosa Island

Reason why im engaged into so many plan even though i could onli possibly join either plan (due to financial constrain) is because (you can actually see oledi...) all the "engagement"'s status are all PENDING...

see which of the status is CONFIRMED first lah...

mean time... if u wan to engage me into your plan... i welcome you to add more on to my list... hahaha

2007-06-12T10:33:00.000-04:00

Special Shout out.. to May Jean

Good Luck in your Instrumental and Food Mircobiology tml.. both in one day... you're my hero... !!! Dont Stress ya...

*not like you will see this also...hahah*

Exam... crazy period

2007-06-11T11:25:00.000-04:00

Exams are here and 1 out of my 6 "lovely" paper has done... 5 more to go.... *positive thinking... at least Im now 5 more instead of 6 more to go...*

but the coming paper is gonna kill me... and mayb not just me... some of my frens does experience the "dying" sensation...

shall not elaborate here... shall continue some other time...

Good Luck in Exams... everyone...

Yanzi @ The Curve, 3rd June 2007

2007-06-04T07:25:00.000-04:00

The 2nd time i have close "Contact" with YanZi...

This time even better, i had a chance to meet with her on a VVIP invitation to meet with her in a karaoke suite room together with other about 30ppl... *honored* Since the VVIP ticket enable 2 person to enter, i brought my housemate, Kendra along since she also love yanzi so much... finally i dun have to go catch yanzi alone... *Praise redbox*

this, i will thank RedBox-DotRed Reward programme( abit a promo for you since u guys are so nice to me...) for giving me this opportunity although i need to use 600 of my DotRed point but it's defiantly worth it!!!

here's some photo... let them be my words,

this is the only picture i can post coz the rest are vertical and i donoe how to flip them (stupid me ...sorry) hahah

She's in the room, answering only 2 of our question (according to that *ugly* phoebe, time is limited wor... )

this is her when she's on the stage...
Unfortunately, it was raining through out the whole signing, singing and also meeting
session...

Some flashback... this is a photo i took years back when she first came... (again that time i got limited VIP pass that allow me to be the first 10 person to get her signature... hahaha) im just lucky when it comes to YanZi... hope this is continue... haha

Lastly, this is yanzi's new album signed... one the left is my local copy and the right will be kendra's imported copy...

Some Random PIctures

2007-06-02T23:48:00.000-04:00

Here's some random picture taken during first half of the year...

During Jia Yee's 21th Birthday... Celebrated at Ruums KL

In Hanoi, Vietnam, February 2007

Malay Mail Big Walk 2007

Jean Nee (May 12th) and May Jean (May 13th) Birthday Celebration at Yuen Steamboat

JasonC posing at the Monash University New Campus Administration Building (Bldg 2)

Posing in the New Campus, how could you not fall in love with this new campus... ???

Officially

2007-06-02T23:38:00.001-04:00

I have just cleaned my study table...

and this marked the official beginning of my study period...

*Preparing for WAR*

Dilemma, Exam, etc...

2007-06-02T09:15:00.000-04:00

well... Australian University or rather southern hemisphere university will be having exam in the coming month... Stress huh...

Speaking of stress... that the ONLY thing im lack of... WTH... without this... how am i suppose to motivate myself to study?? if i dun study... how do i PASS!!!

My exam timetable is a bit sucky... and it sounds something like this...

8 June - Physiology Paper 1
14 June - Microbiology Paper 1
20 June- Physiology Paper 2
21 June- Laboratory and Workplace Management
22 June- Cellular Metabolism
25 June - Microbiology Paper 2.

Basically... i have nothing against ending the finals late... coz no matter how early it finish... the holiday is still gonna be short... the thing is... the papers are like a day after another esp those reli hard wan... Laboratory and Workplace Management i have no idea wat to study and Cell Met is gonna be a killer paper... haih... nvm... why am i thinking so far when i haven even started to revise my Physiology... crap...

Beside having exam in mind (which part of my mind does think of exam... hmmm.. i know there are... maybe is just too minute to spot it...) i still have another thing to think of... that will kinda be a dilemma more than anything else...

What kind of dilemma leh.. :

Scenario 1: (due to the attraction of the Monash new campus... ) Extend a semester.... expects to graduate Dec 2008... at the same time... i can do a research project unit... The extended semester just to focus on a research... that will help me in further studies...

but downpart will be: cant grad with my classmates, graduate later and come out with a bachelor degree as "old man", delayed my studies, delayed my further studies... (and some others cant think now)

the best part of choosing this option : better study time... can focus more ( kononya lah) more organised, no need to take so many business subject as elective, take more science subjects as elective... get to do a research project and understand if im fit to be a researcher... can enjoy the new campus more !!!

Scenario 2: Fast fast kau tim my studies in Monash... grad ( regardless is there's ceremony or not) and apply to study my Master Degree in Canada and start study in September 2008.

Pros: Finish faster, get to go to Canada to study sooner, wont miss Pixie in MUN (or mayb not choosing MUN) faster get a job, grad with all my classmate...

Cons: I wont be able to take the research subject, and wont be able to understand how to do a proper research.. more stress over the year... need to take summer which means less holiday... cant reli explore the new campus that much...

it has been in my mind for sometimes... whether or not either of this will work is still
an unknown factor..... but i reli hope either one will work and i will only choose Canada as my place to study my Master and not other place... i seriously hope that and at the same time i also hope that nothing will come in between and stop me from doing it...

it's weird that a times, i could just think of finishing it soon... and the others i will wan to stay longer... well i think all these explain y i name them as dilemma....

sometimes i just wonder... wouldnt it be awesome if the world is like :
"i love you, you love me" "there's nothing in between of us, with only both of us fits one and another... " "wont you say you love me too"

hmm... i guess it's just god creation to make menkind suffer this kind of things... and mayb that wat we call life... (link back to my previous post on LIFE... haha... this is for sure one kind of life...)

how do i express to you.. i wonder... what will you react when i told you.. again i wonder...

even if she notice me, she would despise me...

2007-05-28T04:36:00.000-04:00

The article below... i plagiarized from Beatrice.... well... i was told to repost this anyway... who should i cite then ?? ?

Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line.

AQUARIUS - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost.

PISCES - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREATkisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LEO - The Coolest one
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person Ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

GEMINI - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CANCER - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long- term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Especially with your mom. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

ARIES- Irresistible
Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SAGITTARIUS-The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

TAURUS- The Cutie
Most Amazing kisser. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO - Aggressive.
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty.

BTW... just so you know... I'm a LEO.... so... u want me ??? hahahahah

2007-05-27T11:52:00.000-04:00

There has been many things happening in my life... (is that a life.... im not sure... at least i call it a life...) well i do consider being bz as a life... bz with assignment is a life... but a sad one... bz with non-acedemic stuff.. is also a life... which i will classified as a fun life.... hanging out with my fren... will be of coz the best life.... and having test coming into my life... is a hectic life...also, things which involved emotion, i call it a emo life... hahaha and when everything... good and bad ,in my judgement, come along... it's a crazy but yet living it life.... hahahah

as i have mention (or i haven in the blog)... Part of the reason i joined the MUSA (Monash Student Council) this year is becoz part of my life... has been gone and i have not been searching for it until someone came to apporach me to join MUSA. That is a life i have lost since Sunway College Student Council.... (and JPA3 which i couldnt find any advancement....)...

In the past weeks i have been doing alot of things, assignemnt all dued on the same day... meeting with the deputy prime minister of malaysia, Dato' Seri Najib, packing stuff to move, trying to study... getting the best life back and also involving myself into the emo life...

so... am i trying to make myself bz... or make myself seems bz... or trying to put the "JasonC being the bz person" concept to my frenz and others... i wonder...

2007-05-27T11:49:00.000-04:00

Another song from sookie... which i also like.. in fact there's been alot of songs that was recieved from her in a day... and most of them are nice... this is just to one of them that i reli like alot...

Everything - Micheal Buble

You're a falling star
You're the getaway car
You're the line in the sand
When I go to far
You're the swimming pool
On an august day
And you're the perfect thing to see

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute
Oh when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you

You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day

And I can't believe that I'm your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can
Whatever comes our way

We'll see it through
And you know that's what our love can do

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

And so la la la la
So la la la la

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're every song
And I sing along
Cause you're my everything

Yeah, yeah
So la la la la
So la la la la

2007-05-25T13:04:00.000-04:00

The Distance

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to gray
At least that’s how it feels to me
Whenever you’re away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you’re coming back
(chorus)
I can’t take the distance
I can’t take the miles
I can’t take the time until I next see you smile
I can’t take the distance
And I’m not ashamed
That with every breath I take I’m calling your name
I can’t take the distance
I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you’re close to me
But it ain’t close enough
Not nearly close enough
(chorus)
I’d breathe fire and I’d be free
To be by your side, I’d do anything
I can’t take the distance
I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That’s how much you mean to me
(chorus)

I find the songs kinda meaningful.. it's from sookwai... thanks...
Try to understand the lyrics... u might not in the position to feel it.. but some might just does....

There's also another song... which is also from sookwai... So contagious... i guess i will post up when my internet is back to be normal...

a small accident

2007-04-12T06:04:00.000-04:00

A minor accident happen today...
a minor one,

it happen in ss15, in a parking lot that was meant for car ,a motocycle parked there...

i overlook and accidentally push the motorcycle down with my car, the motorcycle felt and scratch abit,

i said sorry to the owner but i refuse to pay,

im feeling guilty but yet i dun feel like paying her.

it was her fault and also mine to overlooked it... im sorry but i reli dun felt like paying her any compensation,

i shall let the guilt subside soon before it got all over me.

2007-04-11T08:10:00.000-04:00

Holiday started. Assigment stuck. complaining 1 week is not enuff for a holiday. all the above are those common thing that arise when mid-sem break starts....

So...now im officially a Mac user... hehe... but im not too sure how to use it yet... but learning... hahaha... the iMac is just darn cool ~ hahaha

now a major problem with my blog is that... firefox cant view is as black background... me myself also cant see it liao ... hahaha.. shall find a way to rectify this problem if i can.. hahha...

i shall continue with my assignment dee... so that i can go watch Ninja turtle tml .. ciaoz

Finally.. the JasonC is back

2007-04-06T10:31:00.000-04:00

alrite alrite... so i did send my application to the national heritage to get recognition on being the heritage blog... but then they rejected me... even i have stop writting for so long....

So come to think of it... this is the longest break i ever took..... 4 months ? 5 months ? around there...

i can see that my tag box is filled with concern mostly, anger some... and curiosity too... and many more lah.... hahaha to address those concern... im not dead yet... pretty much alive just bz.... sorry for the long "MIA"...

Basically, from the last time i blog, i thik started summer holiday which i had my Clinical Attachment with Pathlab... for 2 months... most of the time i come home tired and got no time to blog (that's just an excuse... but forgive me... hahahaha)...

then when im done... there's Chinese New Year... again... no need to say... had went all out to get ang pow... !!! hahaha

den uni starts... together with new subjects, i also had new responsibility... the council... yeah so basically was plain Busy and on top of that... when assignments and report starts to come in ... both my laptop and desktop all gave up on me... so i cant blog again...

and now.... im having a short mid sem break next week for a week.. so im pretty free to blog...

that's all for now i think... i should be blogging soon .. or at least i hope i will be bloggin more often.. hahaha.. short post also i should post lah.. 2 lines better than noting rite...

Difference of Pertahanan Awam and RELA

2006-11-07T10:41:00.000-05:00

today, my dear readers i am going to just show the difference between Pertahanan Awam and RELA...

yes, pertahanan awam is what i join not RELA... I have always been confused by ppl saying that im a "RELA" which with all due respect is not true.... so i will just list the difference here ....

1. First of all, we are governed by different Ministry
RELA - Ministry of Home Affairs
Pertahanan Awam - Ministry of Internal Security
where The Minister of Home Affairs is Y.B. DATO' SERI MOHD RADZI BIN SHEIKH AHMAD
while the Minister of Internal Security is Y.A.B. DATO' SERI ABDULLAH BIN HAJI AHMAD BADAWI which also is our Prime Minister. So... in this, you can see that we are DIFFERENT...

2. Okey.. Second, Yes we are all volunteers (Sukarelawan) but not all Vonlunteers are to be called "RELA" rite ? RELA stands for Ikatan Relawan Rakyat Malaysia (People's Volunteer Corps)... It's RELAWAN RAKYAT(People's Volunteer) which functions something like home guard(being decribed in thier website).as for us, we are Pertahanan Awam or in english Civil Defence, which defence the country without weapon.

3. Third, we are under different Laws of Malaysia
RELA - Emergency (Essential Powers) Act 1964 (Security Force)
Pertahanan Awam- Act 221 Civil Defence Act, Act 425(Akta Perkhidmatan Negara 1952 Semakan 1990) and Perlembagaan Malaysia Perkara 74 and 77.

RELA was formed under the Emergency (Essential Powers) Act on the 11 January 1972 as voluntary government security apparatus

While us(Pertahanan Awam) is formed in 1939 by the british as a form of Passive Defence under the Emergency Regulation Enactment Chapter 41 to help in the World War II.

By the means of Perlembagaan Malaysia Perkara 74 and 77, Pertahanan Awam is part of the Defence Force of Malaysia.

4. Since we are set up under differnt regualtion and act, our function is totally difference, but some similarity within also...

From www.moha.gov.my/opencms/export/KHEDN/BhgJ2/index.html,

(i)RELA was established to provide opportunities for patriotic citizens to become members of a government security agency which was formed to assist, maintain and safeguard peace and security in the country.
(ii)Its establishment is consistent with the philosophy that the responsibility of defending the sovereignty and independence of the country is in the hands of its own citizens, with all citizens playing their respective roles.

which in short is something like citizen-formed alliance that protect the nation and citizens' peace and security in the country.

As for Pertahanan Awam,

Pertahanan Awam have 2 function in 2 different time, During War and During Peace,

During war,
Civil Defence will protect the country by all means without involving the use of weapon. Action is taking before, during and after the war.

During Peace,
Civil Defence will protect the lives and properties of citizen whether if the action is taken before, during or after the event.

So for the similarity, it will be both of us trying to protect the safety of citizen so there are times that we will be working together.

Motto For RELA is Ready to Serve
Pertahanan Awam is SEDIA PANTAS BERINTEGRITI

5. Officers of RELA could with some regulation carry weapon(gun) when they are doing thier duty but not for Pertahanan Awam.

6. RELA main function is to control the peace while Pertahanan Awam is to save lifes and properties mostly during natural disaster or just "madn-made" disasters, accidents and others. We are trained to perform first aid, RELA too, but that's our primary aim not thier's. We have ambulance services, we are also equipped with essential knowledge and equipment that can save lifes during fire such as fire-bridgage and others, but thier small compare to the Fire Rescue Department (those red ones u see everywhere... )

7. Different logo...
RELA

Pertahanan Awam

8. For u to diffrentiate us when u see one of us...

RELA
Notice the Beret ( cap on top of the head) - it's Yellow together with thier badge
The line above the left hand (circled) pocket says thier registered personal "call number" which is detachedable... the name and the number are "stick-on" kind...

on the left sleeve(circled) is a line written "RELA"

as for pertahanan Awam,

this is the formal uniform where u can see
the beret - is orange, with gold colour crest on it
on top of left pocket is written "Pertahanan Awam" or "JPA3" instead of number as like RELA... It's sew on and the name is on the right which also is sew on.
The line on the left sleeve is written "Pertahanan Awam"

In general, our uniform is green colour, but the RELA has a lighter green while us is a darker green. u can tell when both stand together... hahaha ...

sometimes we also wear half uniform during our duty...
the black beret is juz a older version , it does not show anything special ... and the top will be in orange ...

In general , RELA is assocaited to Yellow colour and Pertahanan Awam is Orange

i think that's all i can think now... there are more actually.. so stop getting us confused... and im not a RELA... im a Pertahanan Awam.... stop referring me as RELA or call me one.. hahaha ...

An Ambulance Driving Experience

2006-10-22T13:08:00.000-04:00

Oh yeah... so.. i finally drove an ambulance out... Yeah.. and the first time i drove for 54KMs most of the time, i dun even drive more than a KM.. because what i usually do is onli drive out of the parking.. give it a few rountine check and reverse it back.. and if there's a case, i wont be driving because i dont have much experience and rushing to the accident venue, it takes more than skill... oh yeah did i mention that all the ambulance are manual? yes.. not the automatic transmittion like most of us drive.... (hmm... most of us ? ok.. at least for me...hahah)

so... wat's so special about today when i finally drive the ambulance for such a long journey? hahha... it's actually the Operasi Sikap XI 2006... so with the lauch of this operasi government agencies are to keep track of everyone's safety during this festives season.. so... we get to drive the ambulance to make some observation on major highway so if any accident happen, medical attention could be given to those who need it... but it's onli rescrited to highways only, at least for our ambulance service lah...

since it's juz some observation (permantauan, rondaan) so we are driving at fairly slow speed and so... i get to drive loh.. no rushing to anywhere also... so i went to make some observation on the federal highway (Shah Alam - Klang) and Kesas Highway (Subang, Kewajipan- Klang- Westport) and find that the roads are cleared and no accident (good...ppl are following the rulez and they are safe ! ) oh yeah... best part of driving an ambulance with "beacon light" (in case u donoe wat a beacon light is, is actually the shiny shiny thing on top of ambulance that usually accompany with siren "e-o e-o e-o"... without the siren, the light itself is called beacon light and with siren, we usaully call the combination as siren...) and also... PASSING TOLL WITHOUT PAYING... hahaha bestkan... i all did was juz... reach the toll plaza greet the person, and say "minta jalan" (yes broken malay.. but.. ) den they will life up the gate and let me pass.. If the person is an experience worker, they will juz lift up the barrier rite before u reach, inexperience worker can give u headache such as asking me "Boleh saya bagi tiket ar... ?"(can i provide u a ticket? ) hahaha and i passed 5 tolls yesterday where 5 diiferent kind of worker let me pass...

i drove for about an hour and half den when back to the centre (PULAPA-Pusat latihan Pertahanan AWam dearah Klang) after finishing up some report (yes.. ISO wanting angency will give u headahce when it come to filling forms.. .tons of it to be filled after an operation, case etc... ) and i went to sleep...

in conclusion the driving of ambulance is a great experience... !!! *pupil dilates* hahaha oppps... and i hope will have another try again soon...

that's all for now...

to everyone that will be leaving town... drive safely, follow all the advice given.. same goes to those coming home, so that the festive season could be filled with more fun and also to make sure that more raya/deepavali could be spend...

Deeparay

2006-10-20T09:59:00.000-04:00

Exam are near however i still wan to take the time to wish all my indian and malay frens and also everyone out there Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya...

Salam Lebaran 1427 Hijrah

National Heritage

2006-10-13T13:29:00.000-04:00

"Jason if you're reading this, update your goddamn blog lar.... You submitting it for the national archives or applying for natural heritage eh?" (Ng,2006)

hah... finally something triggers me to blog!!! yes the comment above reli got me to blogger and start blogging again...

Yes yes my dear readers.... i know u are cursing me... scolding me... doing all sorts of thing to get me blog again and yes i know too that i have broke a promise to blog in BM but that was AGES yes ages ago... so ... hahah .. no more malay post but here's a english post after 1month and 14 days break from the last post ? hahaha that's abit long ...

at this moment when i blog..i have not check the tag board for about a month... so ... i donoe wat curses or scolding i will get... till i finish bloggin i shall check the tag board...

btw.. did i say sorry for being not bloggin for sometime above... nvm sorry are never too much (well i do know SOMEONE that hates sorry being repeated... haha)....

so if u ask me wat happen for the past month... i would say TOO MUCH ... alot of things has happen... a month time is not short... but it's long ... but lessons learnt are definatly alot ...

well the most common thing will be assignments, reports and tests... hectic... !!!! september .. if review... i donoe howmany reports test and assignment i have rush and how many nites were not filled with dreams but work instead.. let's not touch about this... ALMOST all uni student get that... juz that i might be getting SLIGHTLY more than the rest becoz im a science student ? okey... im not trying to say biz or arts ppl dont have homework ... juz not as much as us... u guys too have ur own assignment to be headache with... juz that ours is weekly basis... hahah ...
However, today is the day where im announced to be FREE FROM ASSIGNMENTS REPORTS AND TESTS FOR THIS SEMESTER... exam not done yet... 6 more papers to come....

Okey...another recent event would be our MUSA (MOnash University Student Association) Annual General erection ... opps... election ... hahaha that was lke 2 weeks ago... in this .. i ran for the Head of Clubs and Societies position... well... after a week of political fight... i won the post... with 12 votes more than more opponent... in that very particular week... i've learnt the DARKNESS of politic... wah liao ... i reli donoe how to describe lah... it's dark .. and messy... never know it could go that bad... hahaha

one of the reason i left this place for a month or so because i couldnt find my MOOD to update... i know it's irresponsible... but yeah again sorry.. alot of things in my mind but i juz could find the WORDS and MOOD to blog... so i kept most to myself and share some with my frenz...

juz went for a yum cha session ... i found that i might be having homesick at home too from next year onwards... ppl i used to share my thought will be leaving... leng,dayton,buzzy,huixin.. all leaving... min,zhiyi they all oledi not here liao... i wonder how i am gonna stay alive then... but at least i still got wurn,jiae,imm they all... that should be something to be happy... but... haih... nvm... details aside... my mind now is very mixed up... need some time to arrange them...

so till i next post...(hopefully in NEAR future...) hahah depends lah ...
good Bye....

Jason

p/s: Darren NG... i will sure wan to apply to be national haritage if i can lah ... hahaha

Minggu BM

2006-09-01T12:23:00.000-04:00

Malaysia, Tanah darahku melimpah telah menyambut kemerdekaan ke 49 pada 31 ogos yang lalu.... demi menunjukkan semangat kesetiaan and cintaku terhadap bumi yang indah ini, saya akan meng-blog-kan selama seminggu dari hari esok hingga the ahad depan... harap para anak malaysia boleh bersama saya menunjukkan semangat anda... BM anda tidak perlulah 1A punya... Saya pun bukan 1A punya pelajar... akan tetapi, saya akan berusaha penuh untuk seminggu yang akan datang ini...

Sahabat-Sahabat yang turut menyertai (sehingga 12.30am 2 Sep 2006)
1. Darren dan "isteri"
2. Sook Wai

harap agar para pembaca tidak mengelak apabila melihat BM-ku (Ke-Malu-an-ku...haha) yang mengandungi kecacatan... walaupun aku pernah jadi Pengeusi Persatuan BM tetapi sudah lama ku tidak guna BM... Alhamdulliah... harap minggu ini dapat mengeluahkan feeling aku ni dengan BM yang betul hahaha

Long Hiatus

2006-08-10T12:04:00.000-04:00

it was a long hiatus .... not that long . but the past few weeks feels like forever for me ... almost everyday is filled up with stuff to do to finish ... somehow i have something at anytime of the day ... either work ... or fun ... but the former is more common... let juz leave the assigments aside as this is no longer the frist time i complained i have no life and my life is onli about assingment and calsses....

so im finally 20... so wat ? im old yeah i know ... 20 is reli something ...a big leap ... a giant one... well this yr's bday celebration is a bit differnt becoz is not like i spend the whole day out celebrating .. infact.. half of my day was being hooked up in some very stupid duty.... but im cool with it ... becoz i know somehow someday ... bday will b juz another ordianry day ... hahaha

something else i wan to touch on ... wat's wrong with guys and strawberries ?? is there a prob ? y am i being refered as sisi when i say i like stawrberries ice cream drink and smell ??? i have to be a girl to liek taht ?? i like sour things in general okey ...

Why do we fear ? why are we fear of speaking something ? that's becoz we do not have enuff insight of wat we fear of... so to me ... dying is juz an end to a cycle ... so... i speak of DEATH liek my fren .. but often my fren cant accept it ... haha i know it;s hard to accept lah .. but for me .. im okey .. becoz i understand it ... so .. i dun fear it .. so i speak of it ...

lots of randomness above rite ... hahaha here comes something i wan to tok about ...

today is my first day i went to a convo... a local public university convo... it's reli reli reli cool ~~ i love it ... Today is Bao Wei's Big day .. the day he walks out the dewan tunku chancellor holding his scroll (empty wan... later onli get... hahha) ... well i donoe y .. i feels good to see frenz walking out ... even if that's not u ... u felt the joy ...
since this is my first time ... im reli happy to see this kind of situation ... its almost same as wat we usally see in tv or movie... ppl toasting grads ... throwing of the grad hat i doneo wat it call tell me if anyone know ... hahaha cheerin ...lots of ppl ... and the most improtant wan ... the convo is liek a grand thing ... i wonder if that will happen to me one day or not ... becoz i wonder how may ppl will grad with me at monash malaysia ... most of them will leave to aust... and i wonder if i will grad on time ... with all my other frenz...
well my point is ... UM convo is reli reli wat im hoping for ... it proves to me that wat we see in movies... it is actually a practice here to.. it's for real .. not juz some fiction ... hahaha

i shall go now ... it's late... first time i finish report so fast... tml class ealry ... so ... till i blog again ... love, jason

A very unique "realtionship"

2006-07-25T22:31:00.000-04:00

Somewhere, out there, chemistry is happening,
i somehow get to share a very unique 'relationship' with this girl and her name is ... PIXIE...

i dun think many of u know who she is ... and i dun think i ever mention her to many of u .. mayb juz the few close fren of mine... so now ... sice she has disclosed alot of my information ... i shall do so to her too

Name : Lim Pi Xie
Age: 20
DOB : 1986 Dec 27
Add : (Former) 16, Jalan PJS 9.26 Bandar Sunway
Current Location : Memorial UNiversity of Newfoundland , St. John's , NL , Canada

okey... why i say we have this relationship ? i have to admit it started out quite weird ... well at least for me it's weird...

so one day, when i was checking my frenster ac... the old one which i do not usually maintain ... and i found this msg.. titiled " DO U Study In MUN".. i was shocked to see the title because i was wondering if the MUN is the MUN im thinking about ... den i read it... ( I usually dun read msg from strangers... only when the title attracts me ... haha)

so i opened it and the first question she asked was.. am i a malaysian haha . i find it funny .. well for a complete stranger it's not funny lah .. haha well then i start to reply her and i always remind myself to log in this frenster ac at least weekly and at that time i have class in computer lab every friday and i made that a time that i check my frenster ac ... because the class is too boring .. hahaha

den we continue for sometime the msg until i asked for her msn ... and it was then .. our conversations was all brought to MSN and no longer in frenster..

when we were "chatting" in frenster.. it was a bit distal... however, when we started to chat in msn .. .to my surprise ... we can actually crap anything at anytime ... even the time difference is like 13 or 11 hours ... but yet ... we can still chat and crap ... and until a day ... i dun remember when ... it came a shocking news... we summarized that we had alot in common ...

here's the all we have in common ... i will start will the least convincing till the most...

1. We have quite a number of frenz in common ...

2. we both love almost the same food... eg. Assam Laksa and Tom Yam

3. My ex-gf is her fren's fren .. ( this is a new discovery... very recent)

4. We like to tok ... mulut murai .. hahaha

5. We both studied in Sunway College in the same year 2004. She was taking A levels while i was doing my CIMP. Same campus, the compaund not that big and i was the student coucil ( i represent her at times.. because i represent the students in general) and my face could be seen on the brochure of sunway university college ... and yet... we didnt meet... or mayb we did we juz donoe each other and she wasnt attractive enuff for me .. hahahaha

6. I went to Canada to study for a week rite ... for those of u who know .. and i came back ... i went on winter 2005 and came back the same time... i went to Memorial University of Newfoundland .. and she went to the same place... but on the second year... 2006...and she is still there... only if i went a year later... i would have met her ... ( she knows my housemate there also ... )

7. Our best frenz used to date... Dayton my best fren and lilia her best fren ... they used to date and yet we didnt meet each other b4 ... considering that my best fren always brings lilia out... hmm... reli no jodoh .. hahaha

8. and the last for now ... and the most shocking wan i got... She used to be my neighbour... and stay like 4 doors away from me ... i stay in 8 and she stays in 16 when we were in primary 3 i think ... but she moved out very fast .. in 9 months time if i could still remember ... BUT here comes the BUT ... BUt we have never met each other ... hey'' it's like 4 doors away ... if my mother whack me at that time and i cry .. it is possible that she could hear me also .. hahaha and that's how near it is ...

if that's not shocking for u ... try me ... provide me with some other REAL example u have encoutered that is more shocking or a better "realtionship" haha ..

i hope that i will see her soon .. but i have to pray that she gets a job next summer so she will come back on next winter... or if she dont .. she will come back in next summer... im forced to pray that she get a job .. so i will have a big pressie when it comes to chirstmas rite , pixie ? hahha

our frist meeting shall be our favourite food ... hahaha

PIxie .. if u could find anythign thing else do let me know hahaha ...

you guys could go overand see wat she write about us at http://pxlim1986.spaces.msn.com/

here's a photo of her

long haitus...

2006-07-18T11:45:00.000-04:00

okey... so 13 days didnt update my blog.. kena kutuk from jane and sook wai ... like im somekind of lazy fellow... that sits in front of comp and dowan to update the blog... okey i have to admit that's a bit long ... coz blog should be daily ( who say wan !!!! blog is not diary lah ... crap)

enuff said... well basically i didnt update becoz i was teaching in a primary school in cheras ( taman caughnnaut..ok i doneo how to spell hahaha)... for a week teaching malay... this time changed a school because my fren's mum is the headmistress and needed teacher so i went loh ... well it was a totally differnt experience.. knowing that i know no one in the school other than the headmistress which i dun think is very easy to just walk up to her and tok to her ... but .. luckily my frist day got huixin... thankz huixin.. hahaa the whole week was quite tired.. so i didnt reli have much time to update blog..

and now .. uni started which means my hectic timetables starts... now im a sophomore... joyful but however, we need to pay the price, which is to have to spend more time in school including more break time in uni with nothing to do... and lab starts first week... today had our first genetic lab... today was reli tired... i was literally sleeping in my gen lecture at 4pm juz as if the class is my room.. i wonder if i snored... hahaha but class never end until 7pm with anatomy lecture from a malay lecturer from UKM ... she.. i will tell later... not the kind of lecturer i hope for... and i hope i wont cari pasal with this one this time...
hhahaha

Ferrari, Porche, Fairlady...

2006-07-05T04:05:00.000-04:00

hello again every one !!! i'm back !! sorry for leaving my blog hanging for sometime ... actually if i say i'm not free ... im telling a lie there for sure... i do have time in between of things to update my blog but it's just that i cant get the mood to update or just plain lazy lah ... hahaa

So... a little update of how things had been in my life for the past erm .. 3 weeks ?

1st... exam is finally over (gosh ... that's like long time ago oledi lah ... ) yeah but it was over ... hahaha just in case u guys didnt know...

2nd... i went to a training camp in Jengka, Pahang... the camp was held in Pusat Latihan Pertahanan Awam (PULAPA)... it's a first aid training... but it sorta like recap of wat i've learnt... CPR and Chocking... something extra is the pembalutan of luka.. that's all ... however, it's a very different experience as it's rare that u can sleep, eat, learn and doing everything surrounded by malays (at least i dont usually do that) ... in the camp, there were 3 courses running at the same time, there are Asas Bencana(Disaster Managment Basic), First Aid ( the name speaks it all...) and Penyelamat Teknikal(techinical life saving such as saving ppl in the jungle, down the cliff and so on)... so did i say that i was in first aid? nvm now i'm telling u i was in the first aid course... all 3 courses together there are 101 ppl in the camp out of which no indian and only 4 chinese... TOTALLY 4 chinese onli... even if u include all the fasilitators and ppl who work in the camp... there are still ONLY 4 chinese there ... 3 other chinese is from the course of Asas bencana while onli me (yes i'm chinese if u arenot aware) from first aid... however, no biggie.. nothing big had happen nor am i being bullied by malay.. thank god.. hahaha instead ... my classmates (first aid) treats me pretty well, mayb i'm the odd one so ... they sort of show MORE intrest in me ...

i went and came back with lorry... those military lorry (ring a bell ??) yeap... first itme experience ... good also ... not bad .. just very hot and the wind very strong ... hhaha so reach there on sunday afternoon... checked in and we stay in sorta rumah panjang with apporx 50 double deckers in one house... no aircond.. fan onli ... and damm lot of wierd wierd flying and non-flying insects (because the area is sorta beside jungle) so sunday was reli nothing to us... sorta free day ... den lesson starts second day .. monday ... and it continue with tuesday ... wake up 5am brush and bathe and everything .. 630 start marching and raise the flags... sing negaraku and our corprate song... den continue marching until 730 go for breakfast den it's class the whole day until nite ... btw.. they serve 6 meals a day !!(and i as thinking i might get thinner when i go camp)...
the 6 meals are
1. Sarapan Pagi ( 0730- 0800)
2. Minum Pagi (1015-1045)
3. Makan Tengah Hari ( 1230-1330)
4. Minum Petang (1600-1630)
5. Makan Malam( 1830-1930) + Rehat until 2100
6. Minum Malam (2300-2330)
after 2100 is class until 2300 den it continue with sleep until 0500 the next day ( not enuff sleep)

so wat's intresting is on wednesday.. where i stimulation was done inside the Pusat Latihan for onli the first aiders, where the senario was a bus was hit by a van... 8 casualties was hurt in the accident, various injuries... it was in the morning while in the afternoon... together with asas bencana , we ride the lorry again to go to a jungle and riverside to have a major sitmulation which will include all the 3 groups of ppl together working on different task on a same disaster... so the disaster was set to be a aeroplane disaster where the plane hit into the forest.. 44 mangsa(someone tell me wat's english for mangsa.. icant think of it now) so again we put in wat we have laern for the past two days into this stimulation, first... the asas bencana ppl will start to asses the situation and give a clear instuction to both penyelamat teknikal and first aid wat is the disaster and stuff we need to know... den penyelamat teknikal will go in and start picking mangsa out... and send to us(the first aider) and we will start doing our job to save thier life... that sitmulation was fun... when it ended... we put everything back in the lorry and we were required to go into the river and start playin and bath ther (not reli bath.. but main main lah) in our uniform ... so all of us was all wet when we got back... including my boots pants and everything ... so the next day i have to wear that boot to go markching and everything ...

the next day, is practical test... i've done well... i was the fastest to do the pembalutan... hehehe... and the last day is written test.. i think i screwed it .. forgot alot of my malay and din quite remember the facts hahaha ... but it concluded... hhaha

now wat was i to say about the 3rd thing ...
ok... so the 3rd thing sorta happen long b4 ... during exam period but i wonder if i've said it ...
i finally got a clear rejection from her... so i guess i've get over her in some very short time... i was reli sad but ... i asked for it .. i sendiri cari pasal ... and afterall all these while i've been clapping with a side of my hand onli ... so... i have to move on...

have u ever been to store... see something like a clock or a car... which cost like millions of dollar where at this moment u like it so so so much but u just cant afford it ... and u have to let it go ? walk pass and u might tell urself "one day i when i ot rich i will come back and buy U"

so wat if u reli got rich and came back to the same stall or shop... 2 scenario
1. the thing u liked so much no longer there...
2. u can afford that thing but do u still wan it ... or u go for the more expensive wan which u could also afford...

will u still get the same thing ? i donoe because i have got rich .. hahaha but i say these for a reason .. to apply into my case...

now may mei is liek a thing that i cant afford... so i just walk pass... and i might say i might get u some day in my life ... but just not now .. or mayb never... i've learnt my lesson ... who knows wat will happen when i grew old and reli face the 2 scenario ... who knows wat will happen at that moment... i but or dun buy or itwasnt there anymore ... so ... i'm not gonna think of future first... settle wats in front of me now ... and get on with the life... mayb i might find another thing that i could afford and at the same time ... i love it so much .. rite ? and not save the money up and find that in the future i dun like the original thing or the thing was sold just becoz at that moment i cant afford...

so i think that's all for now ...

update some other time...

p.s: i finally finish p.s. i love u which i borrowed ssince like god knows when from sookwai ... hahaha ...

Say Goodbye

2006-06-19T22:24:00.000-04:00

First of all, My Condolences to PC for the lost of his grandmother... (yes... yet another one...gosh.. y?)

secondly, condolences to my laptop, he's dead... almost... one of the on the key board has gone crazy ... uncontrolable... damm sad....

everything seems to come at one shot.. in a weeks time .. i cant count with my fingers ( all together 10 of it)things that has brought my mood down from the already-down-mood...

nvm ... now ... approximately 26 hour counting down to BTH .. and then .. i will have time to blog again ...

till then , if i survive, i should blog again ... !!!!

pimple

2006-06-06T13:18:00.000-04:00

Dear plz dun leave me ... plz .. i will make it up to u ... trust me ... believe me .. plz ... no ... dun go ~~~~
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i promise i will break up with her ... come back to me ... i know i'm wrong .. but this is reli not the time for break up lah my dear ...

my dear book ... come back to me ... i'll sure break up with pimples wan ... trust me ... one last time ... gimme another chance ... okey ... will you .. dear book .. come back to me ... i wan to study ... i'm slacking .. no way ...

*jason stress to much because he cant start studying... slap him..that's y this stupid post occured... hahah*

life ~ as i see it ...

2006-06-03T13:32:00.000-04:00

y do we always have so many things to thikn of when we r at the busiest moment of the week, month, year? or was it just me ?? oh .. i'm not sure ... but that's wat i experienced... so .. using "we" would be not suitable at all... hmmm .. but i;m not changing it ... coz we sounds nicer... cooler ...

yeah ... so from where i stand... exam is stressful enuff ( even if i dun feel stress when i;m suppose to... mayb just too stress to feel stress?? hmm.. wat did i just said ??i also doneo ..haha) and on top of this stressful .. er.."event" there are something else... problems that is not given the priority.. but .. is dominating wat is was to be the priority-exam.

these problems .. i would classified them into long-term problem which has been haunting me for quite sometime... one... the problem that underlays for about 3 years... confessed ... but seems like ppl have just ignored the email.. okey fine... i need time to deal with it .. but just not now... EXAM(a self reminder!ignore it)

second... DEATH... i know much ppl would not like this post... if u r not up to sour or bitter... or just dowan to be influence ... i command you to stop rite at this fullstop.

DEATH and Sickness... 2 of a series process where everyone has to go thru in the cycle of life.. and another word for this i would say it is part of "LIFE" yeah .. wonder y i bring this up again? after my fren's dad has this liver cyrosis and passed away.. now my best fren's mum have lumps in the breast and if not mistken T-cells count in her liver is higher than usual.. and her dad has swollen liver... i donoe y this happen .. they lived a healty lifesytle... and yet ... haih .. on the other hand.. another best fren(same group as the best fren above... we are a group of 4 ppl 2 girl and 2 guys) her mum has the lump in her breast too.. wth.. !!! all of a sudden getting this kind of news... ok fine... not gonna continue .. i doneo wat is these man.. wat's wif cancer and my fren's family ... ppl that i knew ... why .. haih... i have a probelm to solve myself regarding this issue...myself...

on the bright side ... My lovely Andrea Yeo is home from UK !!! HOOOOORAYYYY !!!! muackx muackx... hahaha .. gonna spend time wif her .. i got to her house just now .. she juz reach and we crushed her house and chit chatted for whole nite..(not pass midnite .. but still i would say wholenite.. haha)

deligted...

That's all for now ...
Jason that is waiting for an answer...

p.s. I'm not gonna answer any questions on the Death and sickness part .. so bother asking.. sorry to be rude...

one great leap

2006-06-02T15:28:00.000-04:00

i've took a great leap forward in my life ... trying to remove a strong that is so huge away from my way that leads to A future...

hope she will give an answer ... hope she will ... good or bad ... at least an answer ...

*prays*

dear agong, happ birthday (like i know him very well .. like he's my granda) (no big no small (cantonese!!!))hahaha

When exam is close...

2006-05-30T12:22:00.000-04:00

Hah... so mayb i should be giving myself a break ... ( yea rite .. i had alot of it ... y am i still askign for BReaks....) gosh.. i'm so ... "wasted." wasted not reli the word... coz it should mean that i;m drunk rite .. but i;m not... okey mayb i'll intoxicated... toxicated by my biz stats... hahaha ... and other subject...
exams are near .. and i'm far from able to take test... haih ... y y y .. !!!

nvm .. i juz wan to crap a little here.. and to inform that i should not be able to blog for sometime .. unless something excites me or i find something intresting hahaha ...

Testing for putting secret.. hahah let me know if u see this stupid line ... hahah
angels come to me now...

迁就

2006-05-20T18:39:00.000-04:00

好像在不久前发现了一些新的东西。。。原来自从我从加拿大回来后，很多人都好像在迁就我。。有这样的事吗？Ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　我觉得，使在我身上的期望好像减少了。。也非常多人在顺服我，　任由我独一霸行。。　这样好吗？　

一方面的我，会觉得这样非常的好。。而我也活在这样的生活里已有一年半了，才发现到这样的一件事。。。。　

我觉得。。这一切，需要停止了。。我不能要全世界来顺我一人。。。　反而。。　我应该自我检讨，从自己变起，来面对这世界。　而不是要这世界变，来迁就我。。。

在另一起事件，我不知道为什么，我被我的同班同学给弄生气了。。　原因？我也很好奇，使他一时想不开还是什么。。就应为我再说她和她的男朋友。。他就要生我的气? 那未免太小孩子气了吧！还是我太过分了？有这可能性存在，但我也不排除说是她过敏了。。。她一向来做事，　我都看不顺眼。。　但也忍气吞声了很久。。。　他做事。。一定要她所想得一样。。。有她的规则，　不可以不一样，　稍稍的变通也不可以。。还有几次，　我先把功课给作完。。当然，如果说可以帮到同学，我一定异不容词的让你过目，让你参考，把振份功课传给你，但是，当成级派回来时，　她高分过我，这我也可以接受，　不可以接受的事，他竟然说我没帮到她，　她妈的。。已从那几次的事件后，　我一直都在找理由，躲避他问我，叫我把功课给她，偶尔还是会给她一两次。。。　但是。。。　我已无法忍受了。。。

＊打这份文章。。好辛苦哦。。。下次还是用会英文吧。。如果不是避免不必要的纠纷。。我才懒得打中文呢。。哈哈哈＊

是否男人都不可以在这些事上做什么。。。是不是一定要大方让她呢？好难哦！！天啊！尝试尝试吧！haihz...

2006-05-20T06:23:00.000-04:00

On Friday afternoon... (hmm y sounds so former... haha) ok ok ... after all our assigment was done... me and my class mate together with ellie and addy went to hartamas for fondue... hahaha sookie have been craving for it.. and somehow i dun remmeber y i promised to bring her there ... somehow .. hahaah .. let the picture say something ... oh yeah .. the fondue was awesome... but it's not enuff for u to dip!!! we didnt know until when our liquidfied cheese was running out.. then onli we save on the cheese dip hahaha
here you go ~

*p.s. Pictures shown below are not in order and it's courtesy of Joanne and Sook Wai taken by thier T5 and Lumix FX7*

EEeeeYer.. Jocelyn~~~ hahaha

Tim, jane and me ... sharing SET 7... quote jane"wooooo.. i cant wait... CHEEEESSSEEEEEEE"

Wooo.. "Fondue is being SERVED"

(L-R) Rachel, Ducky Quek, Joanne and Me !!! y rachel so happy wan ... ??? hahha

The Pinkies... hahaha
Up (L-R) Me and Sookie
Below (L-R) Jane, Ellie, Addy

Observed this and the picture below...

there you go.. did you see that when everyone is NOT looking at the camera... rachel is looing toward the camera ... but when everyone is looking .. she look elsewhere... to another camera... hahaha ... bagus ! hahah

Group Photo... haha.. where the rest of it ?

Ellie + Addy

Ellie+Addy+SookWai

Chocolate Fondue ~~~

Something that tags along with chocolate fondue... Mashmellows .... does it goes perfectly with chesse also ?? *wonder*

Cheese Fondue - Set 6!!!

SookWai and I

Poser Tim and Poser Jason

Poser Ellie and Poser Addy

When Camera-holic meets Papparazzi... Caught in Act ! haha

Jane and Ellie...

(L-R) Rachel, Joanne, Quek, SookWai, Ja-Ne

A better group picture of the "PINKs"

after that... the guys(tim and I) did something "suffering" they have to go shopping for cloths with the girls.. wat to do we are outnumbered and we are NICE!!! hahaha

2006-05-14T13:02:00.000-04:00

oh yea... i forgotten ... about funeral... chinese funeral are ... COMPLICATED ... so many things to do... i donoe .. chinese funeral as in taoism funeral lah ... it's reli complicated... buddish wan also close to that .. i suppose... never been to one yet ... but when i die .. i wish i could be settle fast and careless... no need to be so complicated... malay funeral will be the best! die-"bungkus"-pray for awhile-masuk tanah...nice fast effective ... excellent ...

2006-05-14T12:31:00.000-04:00

i went back to my fren's dad funeral again today .. to pay the final respect... i cant lie .. but i hate it.. I HATE IT SO MUCH ... i hate to see how my fren suffer the lost... i cant bare to see his expression ... and i blame myself because i cant do anything ... i cant even walk near to comfort him... there were praying session going on ... and many things he take care of... during and after the funeral... well.. my fren and i was pallnign to wait for my fren after the funeral.. after his father is buried ... but he was too bz and at nite he wants to cool down .. well.. we decided that we need to bring him out often for the next feew months ... keeping track of him ... and mayb that's the least we could do ... i just hope he cant pick up fast... no need to be on the spot .. but over a period of time... a short period of time...

tiong hoe.. stand strong... you are with us... we have our feet, standing stong in the soil as root for you... u will be growing tree and we will be holding u together as we all grow together... STRONG my fren ...

2006-05-12T11:34:00.000-04:00

phew..a bz week... basically.. it was indeed a buzy week... Bio Partial Lab report due tuesday ... Chem full repot(this is one hell crazzy report..16pages... damm...) BTH essay... 1500 words... ETW assigment... BTH Assingmetn... whew... onli the name of it is crazy enuff .. hahaa ... well still i managed to go over it ... next week is gonna be another bz week... dowan to mention the workload first... i dowan to reimnd myself first... well... the week was then became grey when i received a message from a fren ... saying that a dad of my fren pass away ...

going to funeral has been my "passtime" this yr... there's been 3 funeral up to this month... and they are getting closer to me .. from my mum's cousin to my mum's uncle den my fren's dad... on top of that... rachel's granma... i'm over-filled with news of ppl departing this world... y?

till now .. i still think that this yr is not a good year... everything bad seems to happen...

i went to see my fren and pay respect to his father this afternoon... when i tok to him.. he eyes were filled with tears... just that mayb he does wan the tears to drop... he was sustaining them... i could tell... i knew him since young first memory was std 5... but i think i knew him b4 that.. we got closer during form 4... and i know the dad since young also ... he alwasy comes to school to pick up my fren... his dad is a nice person ... he treat his son's fren like frenz ... he's a good person .. but y sad things keep happening .. i doneo wat i could do to help.. i reli donoe .. i;m bad at this ... i'm lousy in console and evething ... i can even say a line that is comforting ... now i see him suffer the pain of losing a father ... and i cant help .. haihz...

i keep blaming myself... i need to know ... i reli need to know wat could i do in this world .. wat part i can play in this world .. to make everyone happy... ppl alawys say ... i wanto become a doctor... so i can save more ppl... but how much can a doctor do ? ppl will still eventually leave this world... so i think .. the best way is that making everyone's life worth it as they are alive is mroe imporatnt ... keeping a person alive longer... that's second ... because if ur life is not happy... there's no point living on(twinbuzz...u r not subjected into this category plz... i dun think u r ...)..(that is for ppl that's sick... counting everysecond to the end ofthier life,... ) that's my argument... i'm sure alot ppl against it ... and if that happens to me *touchwood* i;m not sure if i could do the same... if that was your father .. u will definaetly want him to live longer ... and suffer the pain rite... i would now argue that living happy life is better but when it comes to me .. i might reli like to buy sometime instead of ending the suffering .. i doneo ... i cant say it coz i've never been into this situation ...

hiahz.. i'm drowing in my sorrows ... so ... this is another sad post... i doneo y this year has been like this... I WAN TO WORLD TO BE BETTER ... btu wat am i doing to change it ? nothing ? i suck ...

2006-05-08T06:00:00.000-04:00

To JiaYee HaPPy 20th Birthday... it was 29 April ... i onli posted today .. sorry !

story from...

2006-05-05T09:10:00.000-04:00

The following story of toad dissection lab was Courtesy of twinbuzz..www.dreamangels.blogdrive.com

The rat dissection went quite alright with a few girls standing as far away as possible. But, I must say that the cane toad dissection was really just disgusting. It's cold and slimy. The interesting event, which I didn't see [and thank goodness for that] was the fact that Jocelyn's toad "came back to life" after she had cut it open. It definitely scared a lot of students, although we were warned that something like that could happen before the lab session began. So, as much as it was damn disgusting, it was also rather fascinating to observe the inner parts of the mamalia and vertebrae. Now, the un-fun part is the report and drawings of the diagrams. Besides that, it was a memorable lab. Yes, we, science students and sick, and have no sympathy towards animals. Now, that's where you would be wrong. We are still human, and we feel sorry that these animals have been sacrificed.

Bufo marinus

2006-05-03T05:02:00.000-04:00

Before the commerece of anything... as shout out to my darling "wife"(Plastic... need her to migrate.. no choice) hahah HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! good things will start falling together for you!

After the rat dissection and also the report of it... it came the lab session that we have it every tuesday... phew... the report wasnt easy...esp when drawing diagram... crap.. darn hard... i was juz hoping that i'm 10% as good as leonardo da vinci... so i can draw hahaha ... but this also help me to come out with a stupid idea ... tracing rite from my computer screen... hahah i know it sounds stupid... but it works... haihz... it might bring long term damage to my comp... dun care lah ... hahaha

oh oh ... so i was totally drifted away by my report... btu this is not the maini reseaon i write this post... this post is educational.... here you go ... the warning again ... haha

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aight... the frog... haha... scientific name, Bufo Marinus... common name... list of it... toad, frog, and also TIN KAI!!! Tin Kai(Ayam Sawah, Paddy Field Chicken) is a delicacy of chinese ... or mayb juz malaysian chinese... i donoe bout that... but i ate b4 (not gonnaeat anymore... anytime soon...) it is cooked... with wat u gonna see below... haha ... our group got xiuQi very brave ... she did one ... and other frog in our group was disected by timothy as usual.. at first i was thinking if i could do it... den Jane's group ( group of 4 girls) didnt dare to do.. and invited me to do for them... den.. after thinking for a while .. i DID for them!! haha

reminder: you could see the following dissection very often in pasar malam or even pasar tani or pasar besar... so it's nothing not common haha...

ok ok ... let's see the pictures~~ ( i prefer the rats... the are cuter!!)*drum roll*

2 tubs of toads...whao...geli~

Focusing on ONE bucket

THE PICTURE BELOW VOTED PICTURE OF THE YEAR

This picture shows show geli it was to a girl like GWEN.. haha look at her expression... super cute... hahah she looks cuter when she's scared hahaha

Frog lying there...

Lab assistant... getting the frog out of the bucket and lie it on the paraffin wax!

Better look on ppl who tried to faint them for our experiment..and notice yanyan at the back ?? smile and getting her gloves on... happily... she seems like she's gonna LOVE it..haha

Hands On!! On your mark, Get Set....

Go!! I was behind thinking "Can i reli do this??" haha... the answer... CAN WOR.. haha

Checking the tongue

Checking the leg... it has.. erm wat u call?? i donoe .. but is similar to duck's feet ... it helps for swimming in water

With arms withd open... opps... that;s not arms... that's the legs... checking anus...

Last anterior look...

Livers!! 3 lobes liver... human's liver is 2 lobes... dun mistaken it as 3 livers...

Woo.. getting nasty.. and bloody...

Interior of frog no comment

Closer Look

Something was removed?

Notice the nerves that connects to the skin of a frog??

My back!! hahah Me cutting on frog

Sook Wai took without letting me know... unvieling the evil side of me.. hahaha or was it scientific side of it?

Skin removed ... not so geli liao... but now... this is wat u always eat.. in restuarant ... tin kai... hahahah

Me...cutting of a pouch that connects to the Big and small intestine... but donoe wat it is...

Conclusion... it's SHIT PACKET...it contains lots and lots of shit...

Tim's Frog... no blood ... PRO MAN... hhaha

Whao... Major discovery?

Nah~ it's the nerves... major discovery also.. but a mojor discovery that was discovered by me few minutes beofre him... too bad... hahaha

Haha... so that's all for this lab ... btw.. mayb i will post sookie's post on the dissection if she got post anything lah ... quite lazy to write ...

Objective of the lab was to check out the nervous system and the digestive system... no reproduction was involved...

sign out... Jason... 5.35PM

Partner in crime ?

2006-04-27T23:45:00.000-04:00

Random question rocks..!!! Y? becoz thru random question... you might find someone that is in the same situation or been thru a series of same thing just like urself...and by that i DONOT mean love(even though love is one of it...when each of u donoe the other feels the same like u... BUT..this is not the case now...)... hahaha ...

It was the second random question, "Did you ever regret coming back from canada??" that hit me...

mayb some of you might not find this question intresting becoz it's often asked if u come back.. until today i still need to answer to that question !!

so..this question bounced to me again... yesteerday... and i replied just like how i did... THE TRUTH...

and the same questions bounced back to her who ask this question ... "why do you come back from singapore..?"

i'm not gonna elebrate on wat we said... all i need to say is that the experience is the same... no matter where we are... we experience the same thing... even place so close to home-singapore... u will experience home-sickness and cultural shock... if you can deal with it at THAT very MOMENT... u can cope for the rest of the time... if you cant... u reli cant...

we both experience the same pressure from family and other ppl.. (ESP: AUNTIES!!!..not being anti-feminie here) one common question ... "why you let go such a good opp??" and it usually follow by.. "IF I WAS YOU... " hahaha ... so if it was you.. can you reli feel wat we are feeling ??

another thing was about "WRONG TIMING".. wrong timing can reli be bad (trust me ... in everything... wrong timing is bad ... esp when u pop "THE" question when u wan to staart a relationship!!!.. haha .. so we concluded that when we were there, the timing is not rite ... and so... everything is so not rite for us AT THAT TIME... we doneo wat could have happen if we stay.. we could be happier or the other way round..
who knows wat will happen lah...

and on top of everything... now that both of us have frenz goign to where we were... so? wat does it imply ?? haha... when we were there.. no one there.. now taht we come back ... den ppl go.. for my case.. in the winter 06 intake... there were 4... yes 4 malaysian went.. the number can be small... but ..it's significant... compare to my time... which i was the only malaysian that went there...

well it was a lesson and a precious experience we had.. so .. that's gonna stay as a good memory.. but still i would like to go back to the place i have not "conquered"... and try to finish my masters degree there... hopefully eveything goes by plan ...

*my first time expressing this matter on my blog.. i've moved a stage higher...*

okey .. again posted in comp la DURING CLASS!!! haha
class ends now.. bye bye ...

2006-04-18T06:35:00.000-04:00

ever think of a simple gesture could reli change a person's day ?

my simple gesture refers as a touch, a pad on shoulder, pad on head, a kiss, a show of middle finger and the list goes on...

is it reli true that our emotion could be affected by such a small thing ?? yes i do think so ... and does this means that my EQ is fairly low ?? if you agree with me does it imply that ur EQ is equaly as low as mine??

if my words above trigger your anger.... den i assumed that your EQ is below mine hahaha.... no offence...

so wat is all this about ? explain to me !!!

2006-04-16T09:52:00.000-04:00

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

2006-04-13T22:52:00.000-04:00

Holiday is in another 2 more hours... have been waiting for sometime for this break... well when you have holiday you will look forawrd to class to start... and the other way round, you'll so look forward to holiday when school starts... hahaa ... it's just weird...

when out with sook wai and lili yesterday... it;s been long since i've seen them... something sook wai said was so true... she said.. "it's all because of ONE WORD(LAZY) that ppl will start losing contact" which i think is indeed true... but... is that the only way to maintain a relationship? To be HARDWORKING ?

With the assigment load everyone in university have... is that possible to spear out so many time to meet up with so many frenz...?? well ppl do say ... it's possible when u work it out... nothing is immpossible ... yeah TRUE , again BUT... we would be HARDWORKING to keep in touch with fren and losing touch with out HOMEWORK?

that's a problem of wieghting the pros and cons... you weight it yourself... i cant live without my fren out there.. including YOU! yes... you, who are reading my blog... hahah... but i cant live without graduting here also..... but i swill still meet up with YOU...

now that my college mates are getting lesser in meeting up... i recall my frist sem last yr... we go movie occasionally... lunch together in sp .. fun time... holiday go chilis... all og the good time.. now ... we hardly get all in a gorup to even go for lunch ... haih... sad case... why is that so leh ? i donoe ... if u r kind.. make me see the light..

i think it will be for now first.. as usual .. in CLASS hahaha ...

2006-04-06T23:23:00.000-04:00

it's recovering ... i suppose ...

haha .. wat am i toking ? u'll be blur if u r not getting "live feed" from me ... becoz i din update for about a week after my minor surgery...

my MOS was carried out on monday to remove my wisdom tooth( i was dumb ... so now i;m wat without the wisdom tooth ?? OBTUSE ? hahaha ) the surgery went smoothly, doctor even say she's lucky to get a patient like me ... hahah ... no complication occured during the surgery ~~ ( she lucky or i lucky leh ?? hahha)

however, the whole week i have been dealing with the after-pain ... i cant talk properly ( i do sound funny!!) i can eat properly ... ( porridge for more than 10 meals...) and i look weird... left side of my face was "blotted" hahahah and on top of everything ... THE PAIN hahaha ... so hard to bear it that i rely on constant pain killer... every 8 hours i need to take my pain killer ... ON TIME .. EXcatly 8 hours after the last conssumtion( or eraaalier) ... if not ... i will be in pain again hahaha ...

however, i'm now off the pain killer for about 8 hours dee... and i haven feel the pain yet(touchwood!!) pray that nothing will happen... hahaha

that;s for now first... i'm actually having my class now !!! hahaha but ... i'm ABUSING my comp lab time !!!! hahahaha
ja!

2006-04-02T13:53:00.000-04:00

it's realy a series of unfortunate events

after all the unfortunate events mention on my last post... it follow with two ... quite shocking ones...

when i was happily chatting on msn ready to go sunway pyramid to get my filet-o-fish EXTRA.. my mum came up to me and tell me .. my aunt and uncle was robbed and that another aunt of my found something growing on her throat.. !!!

gosh i was like .. how does this two things related to each other and how does it come to me at the same time ??? they are my family member... so .. after grabbing a fast meal at McD fast food chain... we rush to my grandma house where both my aunt and uncles are at...

we went down for more detailed information...
my uncle and aunt was robbed at 7-11 near thier house in jalan P.P. Narayanan ( formely known as jalan 222) it was 4 in the morning when they juz finish a few dirnks with thier frenz in the coffee shop. my aunt went up the car... and suddenly, 5 motorcycle with ten ppl came... 5 get off the bikes and wat my uncle recall next was helmet knocking on him... saying "ROMPAK (robbing)" immidiately, he lock the car with the remote on his hand. hoping my aunt will be safe in the car... ut my aunt was so naive that she tot my uncle was loking for trouble after a few drink, she get off the car. my uncle was hit so hardly that he finally have to act that he fainted. so he laid on the floor. hoping that they will stop, they did stop hitting, but start looking for the wallet in my uncle pocket. y uncle feel taht someone is looking for wallet and start running again.. hahaha ... as for my aunt, she felt wehn she was running, she was knocked with helmet also, on the head!!! a few times so the robbers press her down and took away her necklace...
that's all i know for wat happens later my uncle reaches the coffee shop again and his fren saw so the roobers fleed...

they went to hospital and did all the nessacary checkups .. thank god they are fine... just some burises here and there... not too much of damage... once more.. thank god...

as for another aunt... she only took the xray and foun there's somethign growing on the thoart about 2cm but its nto dignosed yet becoz doctors left after her xray session ... pray that it;s nothing serios...

and later at nite... i went for duty as usual... i just reach there... haven finish loggin in, cyberjaya have not report to KL main centre to close thier brance ( they usually close small branches at 0000 through walkie talkie sets...) we received a call.. 2 ambulance went to rescue becoz we recieved call regarding 2 cars accident... so i was with 2nd ambulance... we reach there about 5 minutes later... but they were carried by hospital ambulance already... so we went back... however, ambulance one stayed on for awhile to get to know some detail.. when they came back ... we found out that it was serious becoz appreantly one of the car or motorcycle knock on the container trailer... i din get to the scene to see but just by hearing the news... it's schoking enuff... according to police, motorcyclist were racing on the road illegally... so.. that's the end of his life... haih... ~ life... precious...

i'll be going thru my first surgery in another 12 hours from now .. nervous.. but hopefuly it will go on smoothly ...

2006-03-31T11:34:00.000-05:00

something shcoking on the paper today...
a man was killed by a helicopter rotor blade because he was there to make sure the door of the helicopter is secured for the primary school pupils inside the helicopter. it was a good deed for the man... but why he ended up like this ??

i cant stop myself but to be superstitious now...it true... statistics show that this yr is not a good year ... how many ppl that i know departed .. how many of them were admitted into hospital.. ICU in particular...

departed ones are the cousin of my mum, my granduncle SW's granduncle

as for ICU, firstly , LIZA... a girl from brazil i only knew for about 20 days in taiwan ... admitted for brain tumor, second is my ex team mate in student council, Krishant... admitted due to alcohol poisoning and accident for 2 weeks in australia thridly, SW's grandpa ( Hoping he's recover soon)...

that's onli all i could remember for now...

a bad year... let's go back to the news about the helicopter case, when i read it in the morning ... i was reli feeling uneasy ... becoz it brought me back to a case i handled a few weeks back.. in the paper, it stated that the rotor blade hit the head of the man, deteaching it from the body, some of the brain content were splatted ont he floor..

wat remember me was the brain that waas splatted on to the floor... i could still vividly recall that it was a saturday nite... it was 2am , we received a call saying that an accident occured somewhere near the palce i was on duty, so we drove an ambulans and reach there for rescue, i reach there and the first thing i see, a motor cyclist lying on the floor... a pool of blood but i spotted ... i wasnt so much of blood becoz the blood cant be so concentrated and "persipitated"... so ... i assumed it was the brain... he was fatal, dead right on the spot... we cant do anything .. i wasnt scare or did i puke... well... that's the first accident case i got .. and to my surprized i wasnt scare... but today as i reading the news... i reli did feel a bit uneasy ... i donoe y ...

now that i'm having headache.. dunthin i can continue ... i even suspect mysefl to have brain tumor... hopefully it's not... *pray*

2006-03-29T06:44:00.000-05:00

in compansation to huixin who claim she's a frequent visitor, sorry because i forget to cite u and sorry for not updating my blog for sometime k ?hahaha

Now.. homeowrk is really a big part of my life... well a life full with homework is still a homework but to me ... i dun think it is ... to me ... life is will not be complete if there's nothing other than studies involved in life. So... now i'm a guy with no life (own definiation) hahaha

although i have something outside of college to work on with ..still i feel like without joining a club in university is not really a good thing for me... still until now i only joined Monash Biotech Club .. which i'm not even active in it ... haih ... even JPA3, i'm not there like always ... once a week ... but for me ... this 4 - 6 hours a week in JPA3 will be the best time my week.... hahah

Beginning last week, i have been going to my club and start working out and swimming... hahah... to have a healtier lifestyle... i'm loving the result.. my long lost "better looking" chest is now back to me again ... haha i could describe it as.. transformation of breast to CHESt hahah that's juz a example ... dun think nonsense ... hahaha still my belly is not gettting rid yet ... it takes time ... haha... so i'm still gonna work hard... hopefully tml will be Tennis day.. long since i took a racquet and whack a yellow tennis ball hahaha ..

today is pohchan and tsai-shan's bday ... so i wish you all the best here ... and mayb your day be special and memorable..

ja!

Meaning of Life

2006-03-25T12:51:00.000-05:00

What is your opinion on life ? something that;s so important that you will on sacrify when your 1 life can save more than 10 other ppl ? or something so precious that only god has the right to give and take it from you ?? There is, for sure, many differnt kind of defination to the word "life" ohter than those who is black and white wirtten on dictionaries ... some is effected by the culture, some religion and also own experince...

recently, 2 relatives left in my mother side extended family... eventhought i'm not close to them... but they are my mother's close, well consider close enough relatives... one of which is her cousin, and another just today... the father of the cousin..

right after the chinese new year, my mum's cousin passed on due to infection... an infection that until today,unknown. He was a doctor, a missionary doctor who follows a group of charity to start helping to dignose ppl that cant afford to see a doctor... mayb that's where he got the infection... this infection is dangerous... it's spread by wind ... not onli by droplets... however, there's no cure or even the striant of virus that infected him was known... His pass on has been a sad one because even by giving up this life... he cant safe more life... not to say it;s a must.. but just i think even him heself feels disappointed....

i wasnt very close to him... mayb met him a few times... but i dun recall any conversation with him...

wat comes like about a month after that ... is the death of the father which juz happen thursday ... and went on with the cremation today... this is reli a surprise to me ... and it's reli sad for the family... first the lose a child... the eldest child... now the father.. worst is that the mother is also admited into hospital right after teh deathof her husband.. she has mental illness even b4 the death of her child... and now... she's so ill that she needs to be put into hospital ... she's diabetic too... haihz...

back to the father... not long after the death of his child ... my grandfather (brohter to the father) came to us and seek for help... the fahter is looking for money to cure his illness.. his own illness.. something regarding the back... he has a land to sell(forget to mention... he's the eldest brother of the family... has a group of company... family biz... quite wealthy...) in order to get the cash to cure him... and he made an appointment on thursday to carry out the operation... unfortunely... he cant wait till the operation... and passed on...

the key is ... a very deep secret that i juz found today is that he wasnt dead on natural causes or becoz of the illness... becoz of somethings else... well that reli came to me, shocking..!!

and from that... now i have a differnt view on life...

hola

2006-03-25T12:14:00.000-05:00

hola~ long time no c ... hahaha

i think the moment i start my break in monash ... is when i stop blogging also rite ?? i suppose so ... well... the new term begin is not when i start blogging again .. ahah that's wierd ..

to jia yee... sorry you have check it often and find nothing in here .. sometimes when i check .. the page starts to display wierd stuff ... all corupted ... and reli messed up ...

and to chiau chun... sorry too ... u r the seocnd one who scolded me ... haha ok .. not scold ... sounded ... haha

to others who juz linked me .. jane .. and mayb sook wai .. thank you ... haha

it's reli late now .. so i will update tml .. hahah .. lazy me .. ciaoz ...

holiday

2005-11-25T14:32:00.000-05:00

Oh yeah ! it's holiday .. so what ???

i've not been spending the time well... wat can i do... ?
my sleeping time has been alter that it now suits the Northern Hemisphere!!! Sleeping everyday at 3am (+8 GMT - Malaysia Time) waking up at 12 or sumtimes later... going out and spending money like no body's biz .. Holy! that's a life of a junk !!! and i;m the junk !!

End of 1st semester in uni

2005-11-07T12:32:00.000-05:00

oh yeah ... finally a semester has come to an end ... well .. that's not for sure ... it will all depends on the result i'll be getting in a month time to determine if i concluded my first semester...

many things had happen through out this exam period of mine...
To start of with the list... the first thing will reli be the MOOD of exam ...
i dun feel anything at all even when exam draw nears .. literally ... like the next day is exam .. i still dun feel the tension in atmosphere or within myself... i'm on my way to rectified the causes of this UNETHICAL behaviour... hahaha

well the second thing that comes up to me is anohter major thing for me for the coming 4 months holiday .. is my escape to taiwan!! amonth of escape was canceled due to some unforseen circumtanses... (the trip was full but was informed last minute)... well anyway .. it means that i'll have to replan myself ... a 4 month plan is not that ez .. esp when u r spending time... mayb i'll try to improve my skill in first aiding...

well the next best thing will be my love life... progessing kinda fast b4 this .. but now is giving a PAUSE sign.. ( for bio student.. cdks was not bind to cyclin that's y it doesnt activate the MPF... ok enuff of crap..hahah juz had bio today) well ... i'll have to sort all out by myself without help of others... It is my problem afterall who can help better thanmyself?? well sometimes some idea might juz lead my way .. not to say i'm a person who do not interact with the external envirmoent.. (Managment student ... it's an OPEN SYSTEM!!)

i still go for my stand by duty as usual... eventhough exam is going on... (well sundays are not exam day afterall) and i had my first mangsa ... had thing about it few times... it was an old malay lady preparing food for the preparation of puasa.. she somehow fell down in the kitchen... the family onli called after 50 minutes ... it took the ambulans 20 minutes to reach the place.. when we were there ... one of my team mate check for pulse but was reutrn with a negative result... as we are not doctors ... we cant say that she's dead so we sent her off to hospital..

wat i think of from this case is that the ethical issue behind a first aider... we arent suppose to pick up a body ( dead ppl) and are suppose to hand over topolice... if we were to sent her to hospital... we will have to continuously carry out CPR the try and save her .. but no one did... i'm one of them ... i didnt knwo the procedures b4 .. but even if i knew .. will i carry out ?? second thing is i'm worried about my grandma... wat if she;s preparing breakfast early in the morning and accidentally juz sliped...(touchwood!!! Knowing granny always like to wake up early) i will have to advise her to sleep more or stay in room... the malay lady was lucky someone found her and family had seen her last time.. not everyone get so lucky...

some coincident in this was this case was 2 days after the death of the Prime Minister's wife .. Datin Seri Endon ... and the malay lady's name was Endon Bt Abdullah... well *pray*

think that shoudl be for now ... interview tml for KLCC pc fair job .. that is gonna held on dec 2 3 n 4 ..

till then
jason ..

独立

2005-10-26T13:36:00.000-04:00

以下文章转于慧欣的网站。。www.huixinyong.blogspot.com All Rights Reserved

独立

低沉而有磁性
这专属你的声音
我重复听了又听

摄氏24度
雨后微凉的天气
我正在想你

你说很喜欢我们一起的时间
只是希望我独立一点
既然是你的意愿
我可以学着改变一点

放弃依赖掌握独立
学着完成每一件事情
在黑暗时不哭泣
让坚强慢慢靠近

独立
我却没想到
这是你放弃我
的理由

深夜

2005-10-23T14:22:00.000-04:00

深夜
坐在电脑前的我
发现今天不是好的一天

很多不愉快的事都一起在今天发生

主要的还是觉得我在自己的个人成长中不但没有任何的进展，反而出现了后退。。。

我真的须花点心思和时间来重心重组重组一番方可见人。

Pengumuman Penting

2005-10-20T10:05:00.000-04:00

Dukacitanya dimaklumkan bahawa Isteri Perdana Menteri Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, Datin Seri Endon Mahmood meninggal dunia di kediaman rasminya Seri Perdana di Putrajaya jam 7.55 pagi ini setelah beberapa tahun bertarung dengan kanser payu dara.

Semoga roh Allahyarham dicucuri rahmat.

On leave...

2005-10-18T13:35:00.000-04:00

i'll be onleave for sometime .. finals are on the way and yet i'm not studying yet .. wat kind of shit am i ??doneo ... haha .. will update when i'm free after finals .. adiaos...

2005-10-05T13:48:00.000-04:00

Facial expresion is so important..

It tell you alot of thing about the fellow...

like the picute at the side.. it looks sad.. it looks like he's thinking something too... but is that true??

Everyone will have a different perception.. however, when it comes to decrypting wat a person feels.. it cant be too vary...

Wages

2005-10-03T13:51:00.000-04:00

Wages are now getting lower while the price of daily needs are increasing... Why?

I passed by KFC near my house today... i always pass by if 'm walking from Pyramid back home... and to my surprise... the wage for a KFC worker is now RM 3 per hour. which compare to approx 3-4 months before is 50cent lesser and compare to 4-5 years b4 ... it's RM 2 lesser now..

Has any Economist review this problem and bring it up as a journal or wat so ever?? I've not done anything deep on this subject.. so i shall not be bias in this subject... rather juz spilt out my points..

How could this ever happen ?? In a so called Developed State?? arent this suppose to lead to more cases of proverty?? This is making people's life harder and harder as days goes by...

On this hand, the wages goes down.... on the other, the price of fuel goes up drastically that our government could not afford to pay so much as subsidies and constantly increasing the price of petrol.. with this incresement, Businessmans would start to increase the price of thier products... is a chain reaction that caused several other things to increase in price...

Is this what we call a balance society??

The rich is getting richer by day and the poor is not getting better anyway...

and lastly, is it balance to have a graph that one line is going down ( the wages of workers) and and anthoer line going up( the price of goods)?? i doneo how it will be read by an economist... but i will say that i this not a balance system where it should be...

1st Stand By...

2005-10-03T13:43:00.000-04:00

Sunday 021005 0001 Signed in for my first stand by duty at the Bilik Gerakan PA Klang.

Nothing much happened.. as there is no case that requires us to be at the scene... however there were 2 fake calls... we cant b sure it's fake but we din go for it as they were not willing to enclose thier personal particular and even the address were not full...

Thru the Radio... I can hear that there's about 4 case for Bilik Gerakan KL.. as they were paging for them a few times...

Duty ended at 0600... i slept foe about 1 hour onli...

Saya Cintai NegaraKu... Malaysia!!! Aku Anak Malaysia...

2005-09-29T02:49:00.000-04:00

After a trip to singapore... i would really like to express my love... my love towards my beloved country .. Malaysia...

BUT...

i'll first start of defining love... according to Dictionary.com Love means the follwing:-

A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.

A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.

The object of such an enthusiasm

aight... so .. i love my country.. but what is it in this ocuntry that i love ?
come to think of it.. not much .. but yet i still love my country... so is that very contradicting??

YES!it's very contradicting... even me myself cant be sure if i truly love my country...

Demi menyahut seruan PM.. untuk menunjukkan "cinta" anda terhapdap neraga ini, belilah baragan buatan malaysia... Does buying MIM stuff proof that ulove malaysia?? wat if a thief who only steal Made In Malaysia stuff?? is he consider as a person who loves malaysia ??

Malaysia does not offer the best place to stay... but they do not offer the lousiest too ... juz that under comparison, it's juz not that outstanding...

Juz compare the Malaysia National University and the Singapore National University... they were once a same university before the Singapore sepreated from Malaysia... after such 40 years... Singapore Natinal University(NUS) made it to the top 50 world best university... but.. where is UM ??

As anyone who stayed in singapore would b able to see that singapore is a more effective and more stuctured country compare to the neighbouring country such as indonesia and malaysia... How did they came to the success of today ??

However, i'll still stress that I LOVE MALAYSIA... as i would not want anythign to happen to this land... and at most PEACE and i'll do anything to protect this country ... !! and this is how i love Malaysia...

"Negaraku, tanah tumpahnya darahku,
Rakyat hidup, bersatu dan maju,
|Rahmat bahagia, Tuhan kurniakan,
Raja kita, selamat bertakhta."

"You will understand more if only u know how to teach others"

2005-09-25T14:12:00.000-04:00

as the saying goes, the learning process do not have a fullstop and it is not just about learning... it is also about how you could share this information...

Is sharing of knowledge beneficial?? Wat is the benefit for the one who shares?

Well, lets just take a look on an example i've came through...

Buckman Laboratories International is a multinational company with more than 1000 employees in 90 countries. Yet, in the industry, Buckman is to be consider as a small company.

Now here comes a questions, what makes executives of World's Top Company to pay attention to this small company and to trek to Buckman's Head Office to see and learn?

At this was just because the CEO, Bob Buckman recognized the power of knowledge and information before any other large company does. Begin in 1992, Buckman and his employee started to treat knowledge as the most important asset of the company. In this idea, all the employee are suppose to share findings, knowledge, to the very detail of thier new discovery to all other members of the company within and outside the country.

At the beginning, not all the workers were willing to share thier knowledge as to them, knowledge is power. What makes them stay in thier position, high among the rest is power and the power is from the knowledge they have. (Robbins et. al., 2003)

Back to reality, where we stand. Where are we? are we those who are prepare to share every single thing? are we? or are we those who just sit quietly at a corner, holding a file with pad locks that holds all the information and knowledge we have?

Lets just assume we do not share most of our knowledge, including me!
If knowledge were not shared, how would you know that the knowledge you have if gonna be true for the rest of the millenium ?
If knowledge were not shared, how would you know how much you understand of that knowledge?
If knowledge were not shared, how many more new discovery could be derive from the existing knowledge?

Neither of the answers are known unless you work it out urslef...

as for me, not till i teach primary i understand more of the basic concept. Y is it so ? the answer is simple, at the age of 10, i've learn that anything which added with heat will increase in volume, however, we were taught that the water has a different one, which from water to ice, heat was remove but still the volume increased. At the age of a standard 4 student, all i can do is juz memorize... not much of understanding.. even until the UPSR i also donoe the teory behind. Till i teach.. den i understnad more... as more knowledge i share, i felt that i understnad more... try it and you will know wat i was saying...

"Share Your Knowledge"

Reference: Robbins, S.P., Bergman, R., Stagg, I., Coulter, M. (2003), Management, 3rd ed., Prentice Hall, French Forest, NSW.

2nd stage of renovation

2005-09-24T15:48:00.000-04:00

Today is the second stage of the renovation of my blog... i spend one nite .. until 3am and now the second nite until 4am ... that's wat i paid to get this blog ... worth it ?? or not ??

New Template... Again

2005-09-24T01:56:00.000-04:00

yes... new template again ... still under renovation .. will soon be done as my one and only week break of the semester juz started... will update soon ...

畢業后幾年的你,依然是你嗎？

2005-08-24T12:35:00.000-04:00

中學畢業后幾年,
我仍然是我

我的頭髮仍然是黑的
雖然直接曾多次的增添色彩
説華語是仍然會打結
但就連馬來文和英語都是如此
仍然想著當年的點點滴滴
雖然那些已不再屬於我的了
仍然在欣賞他人的作品
雖然我仍然不能寫好一篇文章
仍然留在馬來西亞讀書
雖然去了加拿大一個月

我的性格
仍然停留在中學時代
仍然到處找一個屬於我的世界
仍然扮著一幅了解別人
但仍然期待著了解我的人
雖然走了一趟加拿大
豐富了少少的人生經驗
但仍然害怕被人看輕那種空虛的内心世界

我的心仍然喜歡燕姿
仍然沒有女朋友得我
仍然努力的找我的尋另一半
仍然不知怎麽樣的女生適合我
雖然在人生的路途中已遇見過不少有好感的人

至於理想
仍然不敢抱著太大的希望
仍然重復地在心裏向是否選對了科係
希望能了解人的想法
但仍然留在人的構造上
仍然希望有生之年可又成功的一天

我仍然是我
樣子沒變，雖然不再像以前的突出
性格也沒什麽變化，但仍然努力在變
世界就如身邊的人和事物，不斷地在轉動，在變化
但仍然相信人心中有個角落是善良的

畢業后幾年的你
依然是你嗎？

bziest monday ... and tuesday ...

2005-06-14T11:42:00.000-04:00

fewph .. hectic hectic ...

it's juz the second the school reopen and i'm like ... Oooooo ... tired ... the 48 that past are like 72 ... or mayb 96 hours to me .. !!!

1st ... okey .. the first thing i went to school was .. i'm taking over 5G .. instead of 6A .. holy .. the fun i tot i was going to have is no longer there .. i'm taking another std 5 class .. well ... it's not TOO bad .. but it's bad .. haha .. well i can get over it in like an hour .. but another thing that came up was that ... i will need to prepare the report cards and i'm meeting the parents on wed ... *sweats* ... and that's not all .. the horror of all is that ... not even a single word had been recorded in to the report card .. marks are not tabulated .. marks are not being count .. placing ... average ... attendance... HOLY ... i was ... and i got onli .. wat .. one day ... coz we are suppose to ahnd it in on tuesday to letthe headmistress check it over .. CRAP ... okey ... but eventually .. i got it done .. hehehe .. i'm famous for my speed .. hehe .. but not perfect ..

Today is chee wei's bday ... a shout out to him ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE WEI!!!

Happy and Merry 19 ...

yesterday nite .. after a hard day in working .. elaine, andrea, cliffton, su chern and I went to celebrate wif dayton(chee wei)'s bday ... it was a surprize sorta party .. dayton didnt know that cliff and su chern is coming wif us .. so we got him a little bit surprized there .. haha .. we got him cake .. and lots of fun there .. after that we went tmn desa for mamak .. i left early becoz i was really tired ... i have not sleep since 6am .. and i had been working like COW .. so i headed home .. and headed for bed straight ... i was so tired that i cant hear anyone calling my cell phone .. and when i wake up next morening.. found that i have 3 missed call and 2 msg .. all from dayton .. apperantly .. he left his car key in my car.. and he has no spare key ... haha ... so .. i drop the keys to elaine and i think she drop it back to him quite soon after that ... haha

and today ... nothing much at school except that i almost fell asleep in class .. I'm tired okey .. forgive me .. haha ...

but at nite ... is something i have been looking for .. My Sunway College Student Council 2004 sorta-reunion nite .. haha .. coz we have our president, osas back from US .. and we have farah back from australia ... and we had a few not-so-often-seen member that join us tonite .. for example .. may suan ... MRS hendricks(not a council member .. but wife to the council advisor .. haha ) and chen yee .. which left the council on july last yr .. haha .. well if i'm not mistaken .. this is the 1st time we have a dinner together after so long time ...
we had a bowling game before we dine at the manhattan fish market .. i took loads of pics .. and i will b uploading it soon ... i had a great nite tonite .. and .. it was reli fun .. no way to describe how much i missed them .. after a yr of working together .. we've been through the tuff ones .. the eazy ones .. yea .. prettymuch of that ..

basically .. i cant thin that i can finish so many things in juz 2 days .. hectic .. i better go to bed now .. meeting the parents tml ..

later, jason

2005-06-12T08:09:00.000-04:00

the I'M-HOLIER-THAN-THOU BLOGGER'S BATON

1. THE LAST BLOG I READ WAS:

xuinuan's

2. I THINK MY BLOG IS WAY BETTER THAN THAT BLOG ABOVE BECAUSE:

erm... i updated more than her..

3. IMHO THE BEST ENTRY I HAVE EVER BLOGGED IS :

4. THE FIVE BLOGS I READ THAT MAY BE BETTER THAN MINE ARE:

Christine's - her template is superb
Chung lern's - his photos are .. WOW !
Wurn's - she can express herself much more better than i do ..
e2wen's - long posts...
andrea's - her way of saying things ..

5. I KNOW MY READERS ARE ADDICTED TO MY BLOG BECAUSE:

does anyone like my blog ?? i dun think so ..

I am now passing this baton to the following five people and they MUST to do the same holier-than-thou meme:

Tze Wurn
Jia Yee
Ee Wen
Li Ying
Xiunuan

aight!!!

2005-05-25T11:05:00.000-04:00

finally ... this blog is getting better ... HTML codes are correct now ... finally .. thank god .. haha .. i shall be posting new post very soon ... ~~~

thank you.. hope up like the new "face" of my blog ...

webpage under renovation

2005-05-23T11:31:00.000-04:00

my webpage is currently under construction ... i'm reconsturcting my blog therefore there will be mistake here and there ... i'm trying my very best to fix it ... but i donoe how long it will take ... but i promise i will blog as soon as i'm done wif that ..

later,
khang

the keys to your heart...

2005-05-18T08:12:00.000-04:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

what do you think about this?? is that true for me?? or it's true for you?? check out the site .. give it a try .. u dun have to believe it ..but it doesnt cost u anything to try .. !! Shallom...

it takes one to know the other ..

2005-05-17T11:01:00.000-04:00

"it takes one to know the other ... " this is one of suen chi's fav. sentence...

but how true an this be??

a recent incident .. well.. it's not like the 1st day i realise ... but today is the 1st day i feel it so bad ... and finally i relise how true these words are ...

the morning started out perfect... no jams.. my dad's home... i din felt into the toilet bowl ... it was perfect... i reach school on time, in short everything before 7.30am goes just nice...

but, i start to feel it when the 1st period class... the most headache class to attend ... 5A...

this class... well i'll put it this way .. htey are the weakest among all the standard 5 students ... they are the least capable to score high marks... i'm not bias at this and i know how it feels when u r in this kind of class... teacher will usually look down on you... they wont have high hopes for u, niether will they expect to see you get good marks ... as long as u pass... they will pray to god...

i've been in a class like this before... it was standard 3... i was in 3A too... it was a long story y i ended in this class... but i knmow how teacher feel for this kind of student...

aight.. now come back to this ... 5A... it strated wif me giving them thier paper ... thier marks disappoint me ... okey.. it seems like they are letting go of themselve... i usually discuss with them.. go thru every single question on the paper... and ask them to check the answer if i made any mistake .. to help them actually ... so they know wat they did wrong and at the same time they can check if i made any mistake on their paper...

when i was going thru the papers ... they dun pay attention ... ok that's one ... i sounded i few times ... but they voices of them juz keep on coming back .. they quite for like 30 to 60 seconds and resume their chat after i continue moving forward to another question ... so it's like .. frustrating u know .. okey .. den when the class is almost over , i asked them to hand in all the paper coz this was to prevent the question being leaked out ... coz i'm not sure is all the std. 5 student went thru this test or not .. so for safety ... and also to make sure they wont say they din bring thier paper the next time i want to discuss... when they pass up the paper ... it's juz not enuff .. it's always short of one ... miserable one .... and i cant seems to locate it .. and i ask the class... no one pays attention to me .. i'm like and idiot stadning right in front of everyone not asking but singing .. and it's like i'm singing badly that no one has to care bout me ... HELLO!!!!it's ur teacher standing right here .. not anyone else.. not ur maid ... and i'm toking to u ... plz .. show some respect okey???

and this led me in to a bad day in teaching .. on top of this incident... i have 8 periods today .. the most any teacher could get.. it's constant ... without break!!! the classes after that doesnt get any better...

well.. this is something good actually .. it actually bring me to think that... HAVE I BEEN SUCH KIND OF STUDENT TO MY TEACHER?? i'm quite sure at some point i were... or mayb i'm not that bad ... but who knows? i might juz be as bad as them ... or simply worst than anyone of them ?? i dont know ... the one who know will be the teachers that taught me b4... haha .. well .. come .. lets juz think about it ..
HAS anyone of u been thinking about how u have been as a student ?? how has a teacher been thinking about u ? well it seriously made me think about this .. haha .. having a hard time thinking about this ...

aight.. it was a Teacher's Day yesterday .. and our school will celebrate it on friday... so .. it's my first and mayb the last time i can celebrate Teacher's Day...

till i write again .. byE ...

i'm watching CHarmed on Star World...

blessed...!!!

手放開

2005-05-12T11:08:00.000-04:00

作曲:方文良作詞:十方

我把自己關起來只留下一個陽台
每當天黑推開窗我對著夜幕發呆
看著往事一幕一幕　再次演出你我的愛

我把電視機打開聽著別人的對白
也許那些故事可以給我一個交代
你要的愛　我學不來　眼睜睜看情變壞　人真正看情感慨

不能給你未來　我還你現在 @1
安靜結束也是另一種對待　當眼淚留下來
傷已超載　分開也是另一種明白

我給你
最後的疼愛是手放開 @2
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋

最後的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台　有人走有人來
我的心是一個站牌　寫著等待

我把收音機打開聽著別人的失敗
哽咽的聲音彷彿訴說著相同悲哀
你的依賴　還在胸懷　我無法輕易推開　我無法隨便走開
感情中專心的人容易被傷害

i've been bz marking my student's exam paper ... had not been blogging...

Daddy's 10 Rules of Dating

2005-05-04T18:07:00.000-04:00

courtesy of soo imm ... (sorry .. ur article is very good ... so i copy ... ut now i'm citing ur page ... visit ) ( inform me if u mind ur article being shown here .. i will remove at once ..)

Daddy's 10 Rules of Dating :

1. If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up.

2. You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.

3. I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots.
Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes to big, and I will not object. However, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact come off during the course of you date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist

4. I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without utilizing a "Barrier method" of some kind can kill you. Let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, I am the barrier, and I will kill you.

5. It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each other, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day. Please do not do this. The only information I require from you is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from you on this subject is: "early"

6. I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter. Otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you cry.

7. As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process than can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge. Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like changing the oil in my car?

8. The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter:
Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer than a wooden stool.
Places where there is darkness.
Places where there is dancing, holding hands, or happiness.
Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to introduce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka -- zipped up to her throat.
Movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme are to be avoided; movies which features chain saws are okay. Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes are better.

9. Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dim-witted has-been. But on issues relating to my daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless God of your universe. If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house. Do not trifle with me.

10. Be afraid. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi. When my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home.
As soon as you pull into the driveways you should exit the car with both hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car -- there is no need for you to come inside. The camouflaged face at the window is mine