Recent Photo: taken when i'm going for a hair show... well after that .. my hair do goes back to normal.. coz i hef to teach in school ..  

spore,spore, spore... there are spore all over my blog... its been long since i update my blog dee... after i reach toronto, my comp had some problem in going online... and in hong kong i didnt have any internet connection..and when i reach malaysia... there are too much things i have to settle,face and handle... so din reli hef time and mood to update my blog..

Halifax International Airport

The flight was safe and wasnt delayed ... thank god ..

is now 7:40pm (local Time) and i think it should b 7:40 (malaysia time)

nothing to eat over here ... and gifts in the airport are so freaking expensive ... not buying any ...

will be boarding the plane soon ... to toronto...

*pray again*

In St. John's International AIrport

"is this a turning point" i asked myself...

"how the hell am i suppose to know!"

sitting in the St. John airport, waiting for the flight to go over toronto...
well, as for the flight ... i'm not sure if i can board it ... because the visibility of the track
is so bad ... that the pilot can hardly see wat's in front of them ...

it has been snowing since yesterday ... or i should say this morning .. beacuase b4 i went to
bed... there is nothing on the ground excepet for some small amount of "left-over" snows..

again i asked myself, " Did i juz pass the Point of Safety Return-a point that i will not be
able to turn back" well .. obvoiously not ... i still gota chance in the coming fall if i
am to come back ... i'm welcome at this Uni..

the thing is i'm not sure if i'm coming back to canada to study .. again the "double-face"
me drop by and say hi... i wan to stay .. but i wan to stay in malaysia too... am i too
greedy? i do think so .. well is very obviuos that i cant hef both option...

i feel so bad now ... i did something ashamed to my family ... neva in my group of frenz ..
my dad's fren ... my mum's fren or any other relatives and friends has done this ... return
home... neva .. neva had i heard of this ridiculous P.O.S. i reli felt so sorry for my family

that's all for now ...

still waiting for the weather report... if i was to go over to toronto today ... if not i'll be
so screwed ... coz i got no place to stay if this is the case...

When you feel it in your body
You found somebody who makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like you're ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past - you wanna let it go

I've been there, done it, humped around
After all that - this is what I found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby...

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars
(You can have it all back)
Flowers, cards and candy
(I do it just cause I'm...)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Fallas I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can

See I've been there, done it, walk around
After all that - this is what I found
Everyone of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

Well... all i can say .. this(Usher-You got it Bad)is a nice song ... i like it very much ... and another song will be Beatiful Soul by Josses ... which should b playing on my blog now ... and here's the lyrics...

JESSE MCCARTNEY LYRICS

"Beautiful Soul"

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

Sorry

"sorry seems to be the hardest words..."

ever heard of this song?? i love it .. but i dun think is true ... you can easily say sorry ... rite?? like knocking into ppl ... did some timid small mistake... yea... sorry seems to be heard everywhere ... dont you think so ??

But... there is but~ but when do you actually mean it ?? i say it often ... and i meant it most of the time ... but i neva knew that i could reli feel sorry when i said a "sorry" to my parents...

a day or 2 back ... i called my parents .. telling them how much i feel to go back to malaysia .. they neva scold me .. instead ..they welcome me back to Malaysia .. esp my Dad... he was so supportive to ask me go back to malaysia...

In my whole life... i've never been making my parents proud.. bcoz i un hef any excellent in result ... i got no special talent... and i've always been a notty child(when i was young ..about 9)in people's thiking.. but i got ride of that when i was older... i became so much more ...erm .. better child .. not so problem causing to other ppl... but still to my parents.. but still in other's opinion .. they think that i will b notty forever ... and it spoiled my parents's image... that's y after that i've always been trying to maintain they IMAGE...

i was reli sorry when i said sorry to them that day ... I RELI RELI MEAN IT... and it is a very strong feeling of sorry .. neva in my life i've felt it that way...

"I'm Sorry"....

NOthing goes well

nothing here seems to go on well...

Things that's not working after i reach...
1. i'm in the dormitory... we have 10 basically .. 10 houses ... and I"M IN THE ONE THAT HAS NO ONE... NOT A SINGLE PERSON yet... i will stay like that For about 3 days...
2. Internet access( to chat) will not b available until 10 of Jan.. that's not bad rite .. like 5 days without internet... but ... think it this way ... you got nothing else in your room ... and in addition... no one else around ...
3. i cant get a cell phone here coz i'm not 19 yet... even i got visa card.!!! what the crap man... do u think i cant afford to pay it !!!?? bullshit .. !!!
4. Toilet STINKS!!!
5. Most of the things are expensive...
6. the wind had been blowing hard!!!!! COLD~


On the other hand .. there's still something that works.. here:
1. i got my a/c open in a bank... and i got a safe deposit box...
2. herm.. well .. i take me sometime to think this... well.. i think's that's it .. no more .. haha ...