Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Despite every thing that happens 
I hope you never forget about me
I will still be waiting 

I'm sorry for all I have done 
I wont say that if I'm given a chance, 
I will do things the other way round
but instead, 
if you would come back into my life 
i guess things will be different for us

Although I told you that i will try to forget, 
but that's easier to be said than done, 
and after all these while, 
i felt that why would i want to deny myself again, 
why do i have to tell myself to forget about you
when i know that very well that i love you very much

However, 
my life still goes on no matter how much i despises it 
i would have to live it to the fullest 
and make every moment that comes
and be happy always
i hope the same applies to you

I cant hope for anything, 
I cant dream of anything, 
but I just wish that, 
you will not forget about me in such a short time, 
not as friends, 
but as a companion for life, 
if, that's what i could be.

i know i said i will try to forget about you soon, i know i said that, but i rather i did not make that decision that day, cause my heart really does stays with you. 

It's funny, how real life can be so different. Why can other chase for love so much and that they are so in love and everything, but when it comes to real life, at least when it comes to me, it seems like they say love is not everything, love from your family members and friends are more important? If im not in love so deeply, how do i get my own "family" member next time? plenty of question arise in my head these few weeks, so many things i have seen and want to blog about, but i just doesnt want to blog. 

I'm fine now, I'm ok now... i guess i wont say im excellent until you are back into my life, or when things starts to change. 

Friday, May 01, 2009

i have been waking up to nightmares and always wakes up with cold sweats for the pass 2 weeks.... im afraid, im afraid, i donoe what lies in front of me....

人的內心到底有多孤獨 光從外表是看不出來的