something shcoking on the paper today...
a man was killed by a helicopter rotor blade because he was there to make sure the door of the helicopter is secured for the primary school pupils inside the helicopter. it was a good deed for the man... but why he ended up like this ??

i cant stop myself but to be superstitious now...it true... statistics show that this yr is not a good year ... how many ppl that i know departed .. how many of them were admitted into hospital.. ICU in particular...

departed ones are the cousin of my mum, my granduncle SW's granduncle

as for ICU, firstly , LIZA... a girl from brazil i only knew for about 20 days in taiwan ... admitted for brain tumor, second is my ex team mate in student council, Krishant... admitted due to alcohol poisoning and accident for 2 weeks in australia thridly, SW's grandpa ( Hoping he's recover soon)...

that's onli all i could remember for now...

a bad year... let's go back to the news about the helicopter case, when i read it in the morning ... i was reli feeling uneasy ... becoz it brought me back to a case i handled a few weeks back.. in the paper, it stated that the rotor blade hit the head of the man, deteaching it from the body, some of the brain content were splatted ont he floor..

wat remember me was the brain that waas splatted on to the floor... i could still vividly recall that it was a saturday nite... it was 2am , we received a call saying that an accident occured somewhere near the palce i was on duty, so we drove an ambulans and reach there for rescue, i reach there and the first thing i see, a motor cyclist lying on the floor... a pool of blood but i spotted ... i wasnt so much of blood becoz the blood cant be so concentrated and "persipitated"... so ... i assumed it was the brain... he was fatal, dead right on the spot... we cant do anything .. i wasnt scare or did i puke... well... that's the first accident case i got .. and to my surprized i wasnt scare... but today as i reading the news... i reli did feel a bit uneasy ... i donoe y ...

now that i'm having headache.. dunthin i can continue ... i even suspect mysefl to have brain tumor... hopefully it's not... *pray*

in compansation to huixin who claim she's a frequent visitor, sorry because i forget to cite u and sorry for not updating my blog for sometime k ?hahaha

Now.. homeowrk is really a big part of my life... well a life full with homework is still a homework but to me ... i dun think it is ... to me ... life is will not be complete if there's nothing other than studies involved in life. So... now i'm a guy with no life (own definiation) hahaha

although i have something outside of college to work on with ..still i feel like without joining a club in university is not really a good thing for me... still until now i only joined Monash Biotech Club .. which i'm not even active in it ... haih ... even JPA3, i'm not there like always ... once a week ... but for me ... this 4 - 6 hours a week in JPA3 will be the best time my week.... hahah

Beginning last week, i have been going to my club and start working out and swimming... hahah... to have a healtier lifestyle... i'm loving the result.. my long lost "better looking" chest is now back to me again ... haha i could describe it as.. transformation of breast to CHESt hahah that's juz a example ... dun think nonsense ... hahaha still my belly is not gettting rid yet ... it takes time ... haha... so i'm still gonna work hard... hopefully tml will be Tennis day.. long since i took a racquet and whack a yellow tennis ball hahaha ..

today is pohchan and tsai-shan's bday ... so i wish you all the best here ... and mayb your day be special and memorable..

ja!

Meaning of Life

What is your opinion on life ? something that;s so important that you will on sacrify when your 1 life can save more than 10 other ppl ? or something so precious that only god has the right to give and take it from you ?? There is, for sure, many differnt kind of defination to the word "life" ohter than those who is black and white wirtten on dictionaries ... some is effected by the culture, some religion and also own experince...

recently, 2 relatives left in my mother side extended family... eventhought i'm not close to them... but they are my mother's close, well consider close enough relatives... one of which is her cousin, and another just today... the father of the cousin..

right after the chinese new year, my mum's cousin passed on due to infection... an infection that until today,unknown. He was a doctor, a missionary doctor who follows a group of charity to start helping to dignose ppl that cant afford to see a doctor... mayb that's where he got the infection... this infection is dangerous... it's spread by wind ... not onli by droplets... however, there's no cure or even the striant of virus that infected him was known... His pass on has been a sad one because even by giving up this life... he cant safe more life... not to say it;s a must.. but just i think even him heself feels disappointed....

i wasnt very close to him... mayb met him a few times... but i dun recall any conversation with him...

wat comes like about a month after that ... is the death of the father which juz happen thursday ... and went on with the cremation today... this is reli a surprise to me ... and it's reli sad for the family... first the lose a child... the eldest child... now the father.. worst is that the mother is also admited into hospital right after teh deathof her husband.. she has mental illness even b4 the death of her child... and now... she's so ill that she needs to be put into hospital ... she's diabetic too... haihz...

back to the father... not long after the death of his child ... my grandfather (brohter to the father) came to us and seek for help... the fahter is looking for money to cure his illness.. his own illness.. something regarding the back... he has a land to sell(forget to mention... he's the eldest brother of the family... has a group of company... family biz... quite wealthy...) in order to get the cash to cure him... and he made an appointment on thursday to carry out the operation... unfortunely... he cant wait till the operation... and passed on...

the key is ... a very deep secret that i juz found today is that he wasnt dead on natural causes or becoz of the illness... becoz of somethings else... well that reli came to me, shocking..!!

and from that... now i have a differnt view on life...

hola

hola~ long time no c ... hahaha

i think the moment i start my break in monash ... is when i stop blogging also rite ?? i suppose so ... well... the new term begin is not when i start blogging again .. ahah that's wierd ..

to jia yee... sorry you have check it often and find nothing in here .. sometimes when i check .. the page starts to display wierd stuff ... all corupted ... and reli messed up ...

and to chiau chun... sorry too ... u r the seocnd one who scolded me ... haha ok .. not scold ... sounded ... haha

to others who juz linked me .. jane .. and mayb sook wai .. thank you ... haha

it's reli late now .. so i will update tml .. hahah .. lazy me .. ciaoz ...

holiday

Oh yeah ! it's holiday .. so what ???

i've not been spending the time well... wat can i do... ?
my sleeping time has been alter that it now suits the Northern Hemisphere!!! Sleeping everyday at 3am (+8 GMT - Malaysia Time) waking up at 12 or sumtimes later... going out and spending money like no body's biz .. Holy! that's a life of a junk !!! and i;m the junk !!

End of 1st semester in uni

oh yeah ... finally a semester has come to an end ... well .. that's not for sure ... it will all depends on the result i'll be getting in a month time to determine if i concluded my first semester...

many things had happen through out this exam period of mine...
To start of with the list... the first thing will reli be the MOOD of exam ...
i dun feel anything at all even when exam draw nears .. literally ... like the next day is exam .. i still dun feel the tension in atmosphere or within myself... i'm on my way to rectified the causes of this UNETHICAL behaviour... hahaha

well the second thing that comes up to me is anohter major thing for me for the coming 4 months holiday .. is my escape to taiwan!! amonth of escape was canceled due to some unforseen circumtanses... (the trip was full but was informed last minute)... well anyway .. it means that i'll have to replan myself ... a 4 month plan is not that ez .. esp when u r spending time... mayb i'll try to improve my skill in first aiding...

well the next best thing will be my love life... progessing kinda fast b4 this .. but now is giving a PAUSE sign.. ( for bio student.. cdks was not bind to cyclin that's y it doesnt activate the MPF... ok enuff of crap..hahah juz had bio today) well ... i'll have to sort all out by myself without help of others... It is my problem afterall who can help better thanmyself?? well sometimes some idea might juz lead my way .. not to say i'm a person who do not interact with the external envirmoent.. (Managment student ... it's an OPEN SYSTEM!!)

i still go for my stand by duty as usual... eventhough exam is going on... (well sundays are not exam day afterall) and i had my first mangsa ... had thing about it few times... it was an old malay lady preparing food for the preparation of puasa.. she somehow fell down in the kitchen... the family onli called after 50 minutes ... it took the ambulans 20 minutes to reach the place.. when we were there ... one of my team mate check for pulse but was reutrn with a negative result... as we are not doctors ... we cant say that she's dead so we sent her off to hospital..

wat i think of from this case is that the ethical issue behind a first aider... we arent suppose to pick up a body ( dead ppl) and are suppose to hand over topolice... if we were to sent her to hospital... we will have to continuously carry out CPR the try and save her .. but no one did... i'm one of them ... i didnt knwo the procedures b4 .. but even if i knew .. will i carry out ?? second thing is i'm worried about my grandma... wat if she;s preparing breakfast early in the morning and accidentally juz sliped...(touchwood!!! Knowing granny always like to wake up early) i will have to advise her to sleep more or stay in room... the malay lady was lucky someone found her and family had seen her last time.. not everyone get so lucky...

some coincident in this was this case was 2 days after the death of the Prime Minister's wife .. Datin Seri Endon ... and the malay lady's name was Endon Bt Abdullah... well *pray*

think that shoudl be for now ... interview tml for KLCC pc fair job .. that is gonna held on dec 2 3 n 4 ..

till then
jason ..

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