Halifax International Airport

The flight was safe and wasnt delayed ... thank god ..

is now 7:40pm (local Time) and i think it should b 7:40 (malaysia time)

nothing to eat over here ... and gifts in the airport are so freaking expensive ... not buying any ...

will be boarding the plane soon ... to toronto...

*pray again*

In St. John's International AIrport

"is this a turning point" i asked myself...

"how the hell am i suppose to know!"

sitting in the St. John airport, waiting for the flight to go over toronto...
well, as for the flight ... i'm not sure if i can board it ... because the visibility of the track
is so bad ... that the pilot can hardly see wat's in front of them ...

it has been snowing since yesterday ... or i should say this morning .. beacuase b4 i went to
bed... there is nothing on the ground excepet for some small amount of "left-over" snows..

again i asked myself, " Did i juz pass the Point of Safety Return-a point that i will not be
able to turn back" well .. obvoiously not ... i still gota chance in the coming fall if i
am to come back ... i'm welcome at this Uni..

the thing is i'm not sure if i'm coming back to canada to study .. again the "double-face"
me drop by and say hi... i wan to stay .. but i wan to stay in malaysia too... am i too
greedy? i do think so .. well is very obviuos that i cant hef both option...

i feel so bad now ... i did something ashamed to my family ... neva in my group of frenz ..
my dad's fren ... my mum's fren or any other relatives and friends has done this ... return
home... neva .. neva had i heard of this ridiculous P.O.S. i reli felt so sorry for my family

that's all for now ...

still waiting for the weather report... if i was to go over to toronto today ... if not i'll be
so screwed ... coz i got no place to stay if this is the case...

When you feel it in your body
You found somebody who makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like you're ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past - you wanna let it go

I've been there, done it, humped around
After all that - this is what I found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby...

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars
(You can have it all back)
Flowers, cards and candy
(I do it just cause I'm...)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Fallas I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can

See I've been there, done it, walk around
After all that - this is what I found
Everyone of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

Well... all i can say .. this(Usher-You got it Bad)is a nice song ... i like it very much ... and another song will be Beatiful Soul by Josses ... which should b playing on my blog now ... and here's the lyrics...

JESSE MCCARTNEY LYRICS

"Beautiful Soul"

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

Sorry

"sorry seems to be the hardest words..."

ever heard of this song?? i love it .. but i dun think is true ... you can easily say sorry ... rite?? like knocking into ppl ... did some timid small mistake... yea... sorry seems to be heard everywhere ... dont you think so ??

But... there is but~ but when do you actually mean it ?? i say it often ... and i meant it most of the time ... but i neva knew that i could reli feel sorry when i said a "sorry" to my parents...

a day or 2 back ... i called my parents .. telling them how much i feel to go back to malaysia .. they neva scold me .. instead ..they welcome me back to Malaysia .. esp my Dad... he was so supportive to ask me go back to malaysia...

In my whole life... i've never been making my parents proud.. bcoz i un hef any excellent in result ... i got no special talent... and i've always been a notty child(when i was young ..about 9)in people's thiking.. but i got ride of that when i was older... i became so much more ...erm .. better child .. not so problem causing to other ppl... but still to my parents.. but still in other's opinion .. they think that i will b notty forever ... and it spoiled my parents's image... that's y after that i've always been trying to maintain they IMAGE...

i was reli sorry when i said sorry to them that day ... I RELI RELI MEAN IT... and it is a very strong feeling of sorry .. neva in my life i've felt it that way...

"I'm Sorry"....

NOthing goes well

nothing here seems to go on well...

Things that's not working after i reach...
1. i'm in the dormitory... we have 10 basically .. 10 houses ... and I"M IN THE ONE THAT HAS NO ONE... NOT A SINGLE PERSON yet... i will stay like that For about 3 days...
2. Internet access( to chat) will not b available until 10 of Jan.. that's not bad rite .. like 5 days without internet... but ... think it this way ... you got nothing else in your room ... and in addition... no one else around ...
3. i cant get a cell phone here coz i'm not 19 yet... even i got visa card.!!! what the crap man... do u think i cant afford to pay it !!!?? bullshit .. !!!
4. Toilet STINKS!!!
5. Most of the things are expensive...
6. the wind had been blowing hard!!!!! COLD~


On the other hand .. there's still something that works.. here:
1. i got my a/c open in a bank... and i got a safe deposit box...
2. herm.. well .. i take me sometime to think this... well.. i think's that's it .. no more .. haha ...

Bad time of the year

i've always been choosing the road not taken by most ppl... ok .. 1st example will b choosing a bigger size gf.. that everyones dun like and ask me y do i get on with her(hey she's nice ok!!) 2nd... no one choose to take up so many position in so many club in CHS... but i did....

no one from catholic choose to go CIMP or CPU... i think is about 10... and once again .. i made that choice...

now... u seldom c ppl going canada to study.. even for CIMP student... if they go .. they would go for Vancouver or Toronto... but i didn't.. i go for the one that no one had heard b4... NEWFOUNDLAND...

pplz dun usually go for NUTRITION... i made that choice...

in my life... i always wan to b something special... i kinda make it tru when i was in high school... and well... mayb in college ... but definately not here... not in MUN, NEWFOUNDLAND...

but here's a question that jzu appear to me...
"y do i hef to b special... cant i juz b like someone else??"
mayb it's becoz i'm not rich and my studies are not that well... but there's alot of ppl like me ... so y do i hef to b special in a way??

i reli donoe why ... mayb i should think of going back to a normal life where most of the ppl live... mayb doing bizness instead of science.... going aus instead of canada(no way .. to expensive.. iwill juz stay in malaysia...) and mayb also forget about a gurl that has dumped me 2 yrs ago... mayb

Rome, Paris

Rome, Paris will be my Next TARGET… the city is so romantic I hope to find my love there… haha.. (May Mei will you go there and wait for me …I’m sure u wont … haha) anyway … who knows … I might find another girl that’s more suitable for me!!! Haha …

How do I get in to this Rome-I thingy is when I watch Truimp in to the sky … ( hope it is the correct speeling … ) I Missed it in Malaysia .. and I miss it over here too .. I can onli watch the 1st episode… sob sob .. but nvm … it had shown me how romantic are Rome… haha … juz hope that I can watch the whole series… (I will try my best to get in Malysia when’s im back … I bet Xin yee sure know where to get .. hopefully it is not in Sekinchang … haha )

Btw, I will b going to Newfoundland tml.. kinda scared … I donoe wat’s in front of me waiting for me .. mayb is trouble .. mayb is something pleasant but who knows… juz hope everything goes on well … I wonder when will b my next time I online … and blog .. coz I donoe when I will get my internet connetction … and also I will b DIS-continue from any source of communication for at least 1 or 2 days .. or mayb longer … coz I hef not got my cell phone done~~~!!!! Hope I will b connected to the WORLD soon …

And today I went to downtown toronto … a nice place .. actually I juz went to the Science centre… whao .. it is so fantastic .. I cant finish in 4 hours … but I’m too hungry .. so I went back to Eaton Centre ( a shopping mall) to eat New York Fried ( a very famous fass food here) it was 3.15 pm when I had my lunch … haha … ALONE … I don’t reli eat when I’m alone .. but I guess I juz hef to deal wif it .. haha … I managed to do that today … next time I will juz bring a book along wif me no matter where I go ( juz like the Canadian !!) haha … and also I brought myself a calendar … a SHAKESPEAR QUATATION CALENDAR!!! Pplzzzz .. is SHAKESPEAR … do I sound very good in literature?? Nah .. haha I’m not .. I juz like the quotes .. and is on 50% discount ..is about 10 CAN so I think I deserve a good gift like this … so I brought it .. haha …

Liying's writting...

i think what kind of story i like to read oledi ... basically .. i used to like harry potter( which i still am... ) so i tot that i liek Sci-Fi stories .. but i buy a few Sci-Fi book ... i turn out to read half way for all of them ...
but i always like those inspirational stories ... like The Chicken Soup... i find it useful to myself and also when ppl come to me to seek for help... well ... These kind of books turn out to b somekind of book i will read ... and i love to read...

as for novel ... nothing reli 'turns me on'.. coz they are very long and sometimes by the time i'm at the end of the book .. i forgot about the beggining... haha ( HP is an exception) about love stories ... i basically hate them( chinese Love story book) coz i think onli girl will read all the chinese love story ... coz all these CLS are so so so ridiculous .. and doesn make sense .. they always say how suffering is to b a women ... haih .. useless ... but today ... Liying send me something she worte.... it was a love story ... i din know it when i ask her to send ... but ... this love story turns out to be something diff .. i like it .. very .. but i wont tell u wat the content is about ... coz it is all copyrited by Liying haha ... i'mjuz respeting her privacy .. if u wan to know .. i can ask it for u .. haha

so this stories makes me think back... i actually like love stories... but not the Chinese wans .. (they sucks) haha .. so .. it sounds so gay but ... i'm ok with it .. (u noe wat ... bcoz of all these love story .... i'm able to help ppl out sometimes in thier love life... some of my fren like to heard me giving them advise on thrie love life .. or mayb not ... haha but all these love stories and some quotation that reli makes me thing ... from all view ... everyones' point of view ... ) so ... is ok to sound gay inexchange of trust from my fren ... haha ...

my fren take a big part of my life~

It's new Yr!!! it's 2005!!!

Another year has pass... time flies like no body's biz... On this First day of new yr .. i would like to say ...

1. R.I.P. ~ Victim of the Tsunami andEarthQuake
2. Family of the Victim~ stay strong
3. All My frenz ~ Take Care and I miss every single 1 of u ....
4.Leng,min,Dayton,Khim~ nothing better than having u all in my life
5. May Mei~ I Still Love You!!!

that all i can think of now ... post more later..

p/s: Stories about my recent life?? exciting news?? haha wait .. wait till i'm not lazy .. haha but i wont b too long from now...
i guess.......

welcome myself back~!!

After sometime… I think this will be the best time I come back and blog… I was suffering b4 this… but now … it’s all back to me (feels like singing … “is all coming back to me now…”) is so nice to get back all the things I’ve missed.. my faith … my strength, my believes , my everything …!!! It should all credit to Min, Marcus , Ruby and also Kong… Marcus is a guy, 14 years old, a nice guy to talk to… and also he’s the 1st fren I have over here … and Ruby, she’s a Taiwanese Canadian , and she … is the one who makes me realize a lot of things ( I;m NOT in love with her… still stuck wif may mei I guess… haha ) I met her like 2 days ago … chatted for about an hour, she makes me feel that it is not the end of the day … I have a life … my life is not here in Toronto wif my dad’s fren .. but instead I belongs to the University in a KAMPUNG!!! As long as I got ppl about my age talking to me , I’m great … guess I’m juz lack of ATTENtion huh… haha… but for wat I think , I miss frenz … I miss my frenz … I was so surrounded wif frenz .. but I’m here wif none… so … haha .. Marcus and Ruby reli makes me see things that Min, Kong and my parents said to me b4… they hef tried to console me but I doesn’t help much … becoz I dun c something real in wat they say ( no to say they are toking crap but I juz can onli visualize wat they said … and it is not real …get me ??) haha .. is okey if u dun understand… hahah guess I’m juz bad in expressing myself…

I guess now I can tell u guys how I spend this few days huh?? Haha …
juz hang on there ... stories will be posted soon .. haha ... but is all about my laziness....