In St. John's International AIrport

"is this a turning point" i asked myself...

"how the hell am i suppose to know!"

sitting in the St. John airport, waiting for the flight to go over toronto...
well, as for the flight ... i'm not sure if i can board it ... because the visibility of the track
is so bad ... that the pilot can hardly see wat's in front of them ...

it has been snowing since yesterday ... or i should say this morning .. beacuase b4 i went to
bed... there is nothing on the ground excepet for some small amount of "left-over" snows..

again i asked myself, " Did i juz pass the Point of Safety Return-a point that i will not be
able to turn back" well .. obvoiously not ... i still gota chance in the coming fall if i
am to come back ... i'm welcome at this Uni..

the thing is i'm not sure if i'm coming back to canada to study .. again the "double-face"
me drop by and say hi... i wan to stay .. but i wan to stay in malaysia too... am i too
greedy? i do think so .. well is very obviuos that i cant hef both option...

i feel so bad now ... i did something ashamed to my family ... neva in my group of frenz ..
my dad's fren ... my mum's fren or any other relatives and friends has done this ... return
home... neva .. neva had i heard of this ridiculous P.O.S. i reli felt so sorry for my family

that's all for now ...

still waiting for the weather report... if i was to go over to toronto today ... if not i'll be
so screwed ... coz i got no place to stay if this is the case...